Journal Entry for July 12, 2008
July 12, 2008 10:17pm
won't be on for the rest of the month after tomorrow, i'm going to germany. hope everyone is doing alright, sorry i haven't been on that …
Goal Completed on Jun 13, 08
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is feeling OK
germany is a blast, but i'm sorry i can't talk to people much... limited computer availability. but you are all in my heart and my thoughts.
Recently: 5 hugs received, 3 hugs given more …
About Me
I'm Brie. My dad has emotionally abused me all my life. I hate myself and my life almost all the time.
Interests
telling myself how much i fail at life
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Tuesday
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L0veme4me updated their status 11:55am
germany is a blast, but i'm sorry i can't talk to people much... limited...…
Sunday
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L0veme4me gave Cry2Jesus a Hug 2:09pm
that's okay. i have to go eat dinner, but please don't do anything too bad to yourself. i love you tons!!!!!…
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L0veme4me gave Cry2Jesus a Hug 2:00pm
HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!…
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L0veme4me changed their mood to OK 1:54pm
July 13
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L0veme4me updated their status 6:31pm
f*** it. i give up on my father. but i get to go to germany tonight, so...…
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i hate myself
July 3, 2008 10:18pm
so i'm up visiting family so i cant be on very long, which makes things even worse. but the other day i was feeling fine and then i just got this …
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So i had this weird dream about Brian Deneke last night
July 1, 2008 7:13am
So last night I had a weird dream about Brian. Here it is:
I was at my high school and I had to change some stuff with my schedule. …
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wtf?
June 30, 2008 6:17pm
ok maybe the parents out there can enlighten me on this. why is it that parents treat other kids like royalty and their own kids like shit? or is …
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A memorial to Brian Deneke
June 27, 2008 1:45pm
This is a memorial to a teenager named Brian Deneke. I did not know him at all, and the only way I know about his case is from TV. I have seen his …
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hey see if they have a german ny yankee....I told my sister that and she laughed...you will have to tell me all about your trip..where in germany are you....hugs
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I wont. HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Lost you... Sorry!!!!
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love you .....you are in my thoughts and prayers...my sister is going to germany in sept...her son is in the army and stationed there...my mom was german...her father from austria and mother from czch....how exciting to go to germany....hugs
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Close Depression - Teen
Well, I'm not officially diagnosed with any depression, but I'm positive it's there. Like any teenage girl I have tons of boy issues to work out, plus my parents are going through a separation. One of my friends is going through lots of shit, too, and I feel wicked guilty I can't help her as much as I want to. I'm taking Prozac for anxiety, but I think that's just part of the depression. The Prozac isn't helping anything. :
Treatments
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- I draw (mostly in school, but sometimes at home) and it makes me feel better, but usually I'm drawing pretty wacked stuff...
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Not Working
- Pah.
- Music Working / Worked
- If you can find the song to fit your mood, play it.
- Pets Working / Worked
- Kittys are nice and snuggly on a sad day.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Same as CBT, cept with more emphasis: PAHHHHHH.
- Prozac Not Working
- NOT. WORKING. Since I've started the Prozac, my depression has increased dramatically. I do NOT believe this is a result of the Prozac in any way, but I had hoped that meds might at least stabilize me, if not make me better.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Apparently I'm a difficult child to council. Maybe if I told someone something useful they might be able to help, but in past that hasn't worked, either, so I abandoned that tactic.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Friends are the best thing in my life right now. To be honest, if it weren't for all my friends I don't think I would be alive right now.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Talking to my friends really helps me feel better; if I don't feel happier, at least I feel not quite so alone.
- Writing Working / Worked
- Wow, just writing down ANYTHING is SO helpful! Stories come to me as I'm raging or crying and I write them down and by the time I'm done I feel soooo much better.
Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
Well, I guess I just realized that my dad IS emotionally abusive... guess I wasn't overreacting... idk he's always been that way. He is abusive to me, my mom, and my brother (when he's here... he's at college now). He's even left for a while when things got bad...
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