Happyinlalaland's Journal

Another night of little sleep because I have an appointment with the Gastroenterologist at noon.  One of the wonderful son-in-laws is taking me so I don't have to take a bus because I get so anxious on the public buses. 

The main reason I am seeing him is for my IBS being out of control because the pharmaceutical company took Levbid off the market with no warning to the pharmacy or doctors.  We all found out when I was in desperate need of a refill.  That is an unfair way to pass the word on and that was in May. I have been on Bentyl which absolutely does not work for me for IBS and causes me depth perception problems.  If I look down when climbing steps or stepping off a curb, it all looks flat and I have to hold onto someone or something or I fall.  I keep taking 4 daily in hoping that one of these days it will just kick in and work but so far, it hasn't.

I have not had a healthy meal in weeks because I'm afraid of giving my bowels ammunition to cause me pain.  I believe I have been surviving on crackers (soda, saltines, graham, etc).  Being a diabetic, this has worked against that problem.  I soooo miss a garden salad, hamburger, beef stew...I could go on but I am making myself crazy and hungry.  I wouldn't mind following a healthy diet if I lost some weight with these issues but that doesn't happen either.

I have great hopes that the doctor I'm seeing today will have all the answers and will change all the medications I'm taking that make me sick to my stomach in the morning and itchy at night to work together better.

I'll update my goal after my visit today.  Thanks for listening!