i am in a very black mood today.I get these black moods whenever he is home and when he is around.He is just so unbearable now and i just cannot take his moods.Every time he is in a bad mood,everyone in the house just suffers and the cats suffer too.But the cats mean more to me then he ever will.This was not suppose to be this way.But living with a drunk does change you and I have began to do things by myself and I have to.He is like so many seattle men here--he does not like anything.He does not like book stores or malls.Nor does he take part in discussion groups.He does not even like music and whenever I want to talk about something he tells me to shut up and this is just abuse.I do not love him anymore and I will close now cause he is coming.