Journal Entry for April 28, 2008
This just never gets better..........................
I think I am allergic to mom....been sick since she moved in, getting fatter too.
is feeling Bad
full time caregiver and only child, EMT, ex nursing student, married one child-artist, sculptor. My mom has vascular dementia and lives in our home.
Motorcycles-i have my own harley and ride with my husband. We scuba dive also.
This just never gets better..........................
I think I am allergic to mom....been sick since she moved in, getting fatter too.
Well...its been two weeks with all of you online to help........
I have begun to dig myself out of the VERY DEEP DARK hole I was in.........
Thank …
Sometimes I feel so cheated
Sometimes I feel so sad
What did she do in life
That depletes her so bad
Found out today mom was diagnosed schizophrenic in …
Hit the wall emotionally about an hour ago..........talked it out online with a friend, had a huge piece of cake and discovered this …
I am sending you a special hug this morning, I've not forgotten about you...
So glad to hear about the sitter. It must be like a new world for you. Kudos!
How are you? I have scaled back my desires to protect my mom and started protecting myself more. It is working for me, hope the guilt does not catch up with me later! I hope you are ok.
I know it is hard to keep your cool. I walk around silently saying "shut up!" most of the day, at times. You are definitely not by yourself. My Mom is so difficult to be around that I think I am stressed beyond, whick can't be good. We can't let them take us down with them. Phyllea
Morganfairy, I am sorry you have so much on your plate. I went home to get my Mother lunch and she spilled the entire BIG cup of hot tea on the floor. At least it missed her. I get very tired getting up early to do wash as even though she is in diapers she can still pee out of them when they are sopping wet as I get her in to bed. Her legs hace such atrophy it is hard to get diapers on and get her slacks on. Her home worker is to be there tomorrow and I am leaving notes all over the place to tell her to get her hair washed. So at least tomorrow I can run errands during lunch without going home. ~Snoopy220
mom was diagnosed in 2005-I am an only child-have been handling her affairs since then-I now moved her into my home in Nov and the stress level is out of control