goneinsane's Journal

Tomorrows my sisters 8th birthday. By god I feel old...

Also, 8 years old was when my world turned around for the worst, so I guess you can say I'm gonna be really on edge and making sure that she is okay.

I love her to pieces although we fight like cat and dog and the idea of her falling into ANYTHING bad that I've been through kills me. So please... I guess... hope and pray for my sister to have a better life than I have.

But on a brighter note, I've found love =D

Darryl Nuth is amazing I have to say <3

I've liked him for an extremely long time and saturday I have to say, although was one of the most stressful days, it was one of the most happiest too. He didn't care about any of the shit, he just wants to support me and I love that ^^

Feels like I've turned a new page, depression seems to be slipping away from me again finally and I'm hoping to get past my 100 days... and then past my last mark of 114 days, and hopefully just not have to have self-harm in my life anymore. The amount of confidence I seem to have without it is inspiring I swear!

I found old photos of my ex-fiance Ross and just laughed at how stupid I was when I was with him. I went downstairs and stood infront of my mum and said "would you like to see something incredibly funny?" and I ripped it in half! my mum shouted "hey! wheres my turn?! I wanna rip that stupid twats face up too!" so we had half each and sent it through the shredder. Then we snapped his sunglasses he left over here into pieces and it felt BRILLIANT! Next to burn his hoody hey? =D

ah the joys of being over someone that stupid! =]

I may have nearly lost my close friend Mel but shes back with us. Shes around 4 and a half months pregnant, but i think she'll do okay in the end =]

and other than that i'm at 63 days and feeling good, so i'm getting somewhere hey? =D

Love you all.

Stay safe.

Carly xxx