Working hard today. Rained all morning to match my mood. But I took action and sent Philip a email. I explained that my feelings were hurt on Mother's Day and I'm afraid if I don't tell him some future time I will lose my connection with him. Told him what I expect from him, which is not much honestly. And that I don't want to talk about it just think it over. Email is great because he won't hear my voice crack. He's been through a lot and doesn't need an emotional nut clinging kind of mom. I've got to be my best for him and I can vent and cry other places like DS. Aaaah I feel better already, and it is not raining.