yvonne111's Journal

thanks from derek Mood

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

thanks to every one who has sent their best wishes to yvonne and me.

i hope read them out at the funeral.

i hope i am doing the right thing using yvonnes journal to communicate to you all but i know of no other way. it is possible i may lose access to it soon as i don't have the password and when the cookie expires i may not be able to get back in.

reading her past journal entries makes me feel both better and worse.

better because i can relive the last few months of her life.

worse because i know if i had read it earlier i could have saved her life.

one day she bought a memory stick and wanted me to show her how to save some of the entries

and poetry to it, but like many things between yvonne and me, we never got around to it.

this would have been her little window of salvation. i would have had to read her writting in order to save it and i would have known how bad the situation was.

i know the computer was a great outlet for her but unfortunately while she was spending most of every evening and much of the week end on it, i never got to get close to her.

a few more real hugs from me may have tipped the balance.

goodbye yvonne , i loved you more than i ever showed and i now know you loved me more than i could understand.

it all too late now to show it

Hug yvonn...

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Heya Derek. My name is Debbie. In the short time i knew Yvonne she touched my heart as im sure she has a lot of people on here. I cannot tell you how sorry i am for your loss. Theres not much somebody can say at a time like this but know that you are in my thoughts and thank you for coming on here and writing this journal i know it couldnt have been easy. God be with you honey, Debbiex

milly17
Hey Derek, charisma, Yvonnes very close friend is a friend of mine. I didnt know Yvonne that well. I know she was a wonderful person. Im very sorry for your loss. Sue xx

SueOz
Hi Derek, I am Sylvie from England. I am so very sorry for your loss. I was the first person Yvonne contacted on this site and feel honoured to have known such a lovely, caring lady. Thank you for writing this journal. Take care x

Sylv
Derek hun, please don't blame yourself as none of us truly knew that she was about to do this except for her writing & poems I had alarm bells ring but was asked not to say anything, now I regret not telling you sooner, maybe just maybe we might've been able to prevent this happening. I here for you Derek & by phone & am doing my best to get stuff printed out for you before it goes...Please stay strong within yourself as much as you can & know that Yvonne truly loved you deeply....**Gentle Hugs** Miranda aka charisma

charisma
We are so sorry for your loss Derek. Yvonne was a special person and touched the hearts of those who knew her. We feel honoured to have known her and will miss her dearly.
May she rest in peace. If you need to talk please know that we're here for you. Take care of yourself. Hugs Susan
and Phillip.

SPN
hi. My name is MAddi. I didnt know Yvone well, but wat i do know is that she was a dealry loved person by all her friends, and a beloved member of DS. Yvonne touched the hearts of many people here on DS, and I firmly believe that this is something for you to hod on to too.

Please dont blame yourself - although I know how hard that is to do.

Please also be assured that all our thoughts are with you and your friends and family.

I am truly saddened to hear his nes about Yvonne, as I know she touched everyone she came into contact with. I know that I wil take this memory with me - Special people never fade from our hearts - Yvonne trut was a special perso.

Hugs to you derek and to your friends and family.

Maddi

lasthopem
Hi. Derek. My love and prayers are with you in this tragic time. You can't be blamed. You did'nt know. we did'nt know. If any of us had we would've tried to stop her. she's with the Lord now. Be strong. She would have wanted that. Love from ginny

ginnycat