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Thursday, July 24, 2008

Well, my son has been at camp all week, and all I heard before from husband (in name only) is how we are gonna do this and how we are gonna do that....bullshit!!! I want to talk to him, and when I mention something of how I am feeling, he starts talking about himself..this is the way he always does, to hell with my feelings, and needs, he thinks that paying rent and and buying food is taking care of me....wtf!!!! I was doing all that before I met him!!!! there are times that when I look at him, I just want to smack him...but on the same token, I love him...I just miss being a woman..he doesnt make me feel like one. I really dont want to get divorced..but is this what my life is supposed to be??? I feel like some people are meant to be happy and some aren't...guess which one I am??? I just cannot resign myself to live without affection...this is not normal, I'd rather live alone. Hey all my ds'ers...I love all you immensly..and I am so thankful to be able to vent...you guys are awesome, and you never make me feel like I am a nothing..like he does...

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I'm sorry that things haven't improved yet since H returned. Some guys only want to talk about themselves and that's very hurtful. I'll send some positive thoughts your way. {{{{{{hug}}}}}

maggielooop
It's hard to try and talk with someone that won't talk. Or to let him know how you feel. Maybe if you tried to recreate how you two met and fell in love. It seemed like after I had said "I do" my hubby started to become distant and it was hard to talk with him or to get him to open up. We were married for 37 yrs before he passed away. We met downtown SD at the park in the center of town. Is it still there? They had bathrooms that you had to go downstairs to get to. But we had alot of good and bad times. Maybe he'll start acting like he should. I will pray for you. Big Hugs, Sharon

sharon475