Journal Entry for June 8, 2008
June 8, 2008 11:38am
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Ems21’s Profile
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Ems21
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About Me
I am Stuck. Who I am is someone I don't know and someone I just don't like. I have Bipolar which gives me self-esteem issues on-top of the one's I already have. But I'm a carefree, smart insightful individual with potential to have independence confidence, and success. Sometimes I boggle up my anger. I don't think I have ever let anyone in or get to know me, I have only recently started listening to Myself-- I'm making steps foward though growing from hard times with Bipolar.
Interests
Myself** Dancing, writing, going to the beach, walking in the woods, MUSIC, Truth**
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Recent Activity
June 20
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Ems21 wrote a discussion post in the Bipolar Disorder support group: Reality and Pleasure 9:46pm
What if you are too scared to feel "Normal" and being withdrawn and hating yourself is the…
June 15
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Ems21 gave chihuahua a Hug 5:25am
Thank you:):)…
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Ems21 wrote a discussion post in the Bipolar Disorder support group: Can't Live Like this! 4:56am
Can anyone PLEEAASE tell me a way to CUT Off the poisoning, distructing thoughts that viciously go around,…
June 8
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Ems21 wrote a journal entry updating their Get to know myself better goal 11:38am
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Ems21 commented on their photo/video 11:06am
I look fatter in this photo, I think:/…
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Journal
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TORCHURE
May 18, 2008 1:14am
I'm sitting here listening to music.
I slept all day
I was sick.
I feel disgusting and hopeless about life.
Everyday, I'm more and more hidden …
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Not Open
May 17, 2008 5:42am
I think the Citalopram is working, but I feel bad still because I'm 20 pounds heavier than I was 4 months ago.
That's a vicious cycle in …
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How Much Longer
May 3, 2008 1:56am
Today seemed like it dragged on
I felt lonely. and frustrated
I don't know how much longer I can take it.
I'm comfotable feeling bad …
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ZOMBIE
May 2, 2008 4:34am
I think Lithium is making me feel a little like a zombie, I feel numb.
then I think about it and it seems worse.
I want to cry from my insecurities!
I …
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hi ems, hope you are doing ok...if you ever wanna talk, just message me!! huggggggggs!
Flower
Look at your lovely long hair, your beautiful eyes and stop, please putting yourself down. YOU are unique the only one of you God has made.
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Thank you for adding me!im excited to talk and get to know you!Ill always be here for you if you need or want to talk!I consider all my DS friends as family!Hope your day went well!
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Hello fellow KIWI and BI Polar sufferer, if you would like to meet other like minded Kiwis from your own little neck in the woods, then please come visit KIWIS FROM AOTEAROA..we are one big extended family! Hope to see you there soon. HUGS Jo.
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no problem hun
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Depression I feel is who I am sometimes.I only realized I had depression after I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder at 17. I think depression is impossible to prevent:(
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- I havn't been serious about it, I already know the concept of it, I just don't like writing and thinking about how bad I feel!It's about being motivated and optimistic about it.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- It works for 20 minutes at the most
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- It helps to talk to someone while you're so down and out of it.
- Writing Not Working
- It's hard to find emotions and feelings to try to write down for me.
Close Bipolar Disorder
I HATE BIPOLAR. it has shaped my life though, Since I was 17. It's such a complicated diagnosis. I guess it explains my really down times and the times I have been really CRAZY. It's all me in the end. I Have had complications with pursuing relationships. It has effected me physically and emotionally. I'm Still trying to find comfort acceptance and function with BIPOLAR.
Treatments
- Abilify Not Working
- I was more anxious and numb on it.
- Depakote Not Working
- I took it for 3 years and gained 40 pounds and still ended up manic after a while.
- Lithium Working / Worked
- I'm on this now. I am not depressed and I am not manic, but I am not ME. It must be working. I HATE MEDICATION
- Topamax Not Working
- Zyprexa Not Working
- It made me shake
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