Waiting4baby's Journal

Well...I had my third IUI this past Thursday. My RE said that this sample was not good (same as the last two). We talked for a bit and she says that she thinks the best way for my DH and I to get preggers is to do IVF with ICSI . I am in shock I think at this point. I don't know really how to react. I am obviously upset and feeling down on myself knowing that I most likely will not conceive naturally or with IUI. In a way I want to stay positive, considering that I just got an IUI and who knows...I may get a miracle. I talked with my husband about what she said and he is heart broken. He feels like he is letting me down. I keep telling him that our issues are with both of us and not just him. The sperm problems are hard for him to understand. He thinks that there is something that can be done to help increase motility.

We have a lot to figure out. If this IUI doesn't work out, RE says she will try me on injectable fertility drugs and see what happens. She is very determined that IVF will work for us. This is just so frustrating. I know that if the cost of IVF wasn't an issue, we would do it in a heartbeat. But, she said it is about $8,000 plus. That is not pocket change.

Oh...I also am feeling like crap because I have gained 9.5 pounds. So much for the 16 that I lost. I am so dissappointed in myself. I have to get back on track.