hopesrising's Journal

I don't want to start this journal on venting or complaining. I am feeling the crunch of cancer. 

Yesterday I started with this nasty cold sinus thing. When that happens due to my lymphoma and surgeries and such I really feel like curd. 

Something happens with in my family cause I am stable.. They simply don't care or think to ask if I am okay.

My parents are elderly and need care. My sisters all live away. So that means we go and help them when they need it. Same with my husbands Mom. 

I don't mind..cept for the me me me attitudes at times. And then the whining about the smallest things. I makes me totally nuts. 

Today I was feeling so roncy and did not say one word about. If I had I would of caught hell...and listened to all of them say...*Its only a cold!* But then thats how they all acted when I had cancer to...so why complain.

I have three kids in the twenties who are just making me nuts as well. But they are all at point..where Mom knows nothing and they know it all.

My husband and I are about to crack!

Tonight it was finally the last straw. We had all the storms whip through  Michigan. My Daughter was here with her little one who is 15 months. I don't mind that. What I do mind is she has no set schedule. And after a while its exhausting for us. So tonight. She goes home with the baby..and her power is off due to the storms. So she came back the baby was crabby and over extended . I was really loosing it. Finally I said thats it...I scooped up the baby to get her up and outta the noise...took her in my room and she was out like a light.

 Thank God. But I can't get my daughter to get she needs that quite to sleep. It makes me nuts. Poor little thing was so over tired she couldn't adjust.

Mind you this is like 10:30 at night ..I am bushed...and do these kids...heck the are grown..but they are blind.

So I am updating with a nasty cold or whatever it is...problay from when my daughter was at the Er last week when I picked it up. I really feel rouncy so I am heading to the doc. first thing in the morning . OH JOY~~

(You know those wheels that gerbils run on...thats what I feel like..Stop the darn thing I want off LOL)

Rest well ..