formteach's Journal

I have been off Cymbalta for nearly 3 weeks now. I had to go off due to 3 months of night sweats. No more night sweats. I would like to stay off antidepressants for a while at least to see how I feel. Usually, I try and end up back on them as the depression slowly takes hold and worsens. Every antidepressant I have tried has some terrible (for me at least) side effect. I also went off Xanax and had pretty strong withdrawals from that as well. I take Ambien occasionally for sleep. I actually feel good for the first time in a long time, both physically and mentally. I get tired of seeing the psychiatrist for meds, and I feel like my family care doctor treats me like I am crazy because I have to take meds.

I am making a major life change for what I feel is the better. I am leaving elementary teaching. Believe it or not it has been extremely stressful to be a teacher. I have taught third, second and first and each grade has had its own stresses.

I am hopeful, but scared. My goal is to try and keep my head above water. I want to realize when I am sinking and do something about it before I get in too deep. I am in therapy so hopefully I will be honest enough about what is going on to take action.

Well, this is my first time journaling online so we'll see what it's like.