DarlingButterfly’s Profile

Open Depression - Teen

I've always been a good student with the best of grades and having all the teachers love me. This year I'm in 8th grade. I'm a victim of verbal abuse. I'm bulimic, I've done drugs, smoked since I was 12, and self-harmed. I've been suicial, but would never commit it. There are many special people in my life that I feel like all I've done is dissapoint. I need better coping skills. Hopefully, I can find them before it's too late.

Treatments

Art Somewhat Helpful

It helps a little.

Music Somewhat Helpful

Sometimes music can bring me down because of all the memories it brings back to the way I used to be.

Positive Thinking Working / Worked

It's hard to stay positive. Really hard; especially when you have to pretend to be the happiest person alive so people don't suspect anything.

Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful

I feel bad when I talk to my counselors because it's so hard to admitt that I need help with my problems.

Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked

Very Helpful.

Talking Working / Worked

I always talk to my mom. She's always supported me.

Writing Working / Worked

I love to write. Especially poetry. It helps me a lot to just let it all out and then lock it up.

Open Self-Injury

In 6th grade, I was known as the "cutter". I've not cut for 2 years. But I feel the urges a lot. I try to think it's normal, but it is?

Treatments

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

It helps but I feel like I'm being attacked and sometimes its just what I need.

S.A.F.E. (Self-Abuse Finally Ends) Working / Worked

I really feel like I'm not alone there.

Talking Somewhat Helpful

Made me feel like people felt sorry for me. And I don't like that feeling.

Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

My dad is an emotional abuser. Causing me not to tell him anything. He doesnt know that I used to cut, do drugs, drink, or that I'm bulimic. I've secrectly got couceling since two years ago, and it hurts not to confy in him.

Treatments

Abuse Counseling Working / Worked

I felt like I wasn't so alone.

Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful

It seems like I'm opening up more.

Talking Working / Worked

My mom is my vent machine. Plus, my best friend.

Open Diets & Weight Maintenance

I have an eating disorder and trying to find a healthier way to loose the weight.

Treatments

Eating Healthier Foods Not Working

I over eat. Even good foods. Ugh.

Open Insomnia

Can never get to sleep at a decent hour. I get to bed at like 2am and get up at 6am and do it all over.

Treatments

Counting Sheep Not Working

I've tied this... didn't work.

Open Separation Anxiety

I take to people too easily and I can't stand to be alone. I tend to "cling" to the ones I admire and I'm afriad that since I but people on such a kigh pedistol, they are pushed away.

Treatments

Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell

Just started counseling but haven't brought it up yet.

Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery

Been smoking since I was 12. Recently got caught in school. I have to quit to prove something to myself.

Treatments

Cold Turkey Not Working

Tried, failed. :/

Support Groups Working / Worked

Working pretty good.

Willpower Somewhat Helpful

It's hard to stay strong.

Open Bereavement - Teens

My 1/2 brother died when I was 7. My other 1/2 brother died before I was born. My dad is extremey sick and always saying he's gonna die soon. My "pops" even though he wasn't my grandpa died in November '07 (we were really close) It was the 1st furenal I ever went to at the age 13. I am 14 now, it's hard.

Treatments

Keeping Busy Not Working

My mind keeps going back to it and I feel like I am running from my fears.

Remembering Not Working

Uhh.I don't know. it bring back a lot!!

Scrapbooking Not Working

Only have on pic of my pops and it right after he had his stroke and he's in a wheel chair so...

Talking Working / Worked

Counseling helps.

Open Inhalant Abuse & Recovery

I'm not addicted to inhalents, but I have done Dust Off, Nail Polish, Herbal Tea, and Sharpie.

Open Food Addiction