still isolating but better thoughts prevail
September 28, 2008 8:05pm
Wow, it sure is devastating to realize how alone I am in the world. My mother who's alone but cold as ice, punishing because she can, I guess. …
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LettingGo
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About Me
Have you moved beyond abusive family? If so, pls write. Am interested in so many areas of life! Big heart for kind people who give too. Anyone out there live in SF Bay Area? Looking to make friends with equally generous people who have made the transition from "me" to "we." Let's share support.
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Reading, small dogs, recovery from punishing/judgmental family, trying not to judge myself anymore, deeply interested in current events, economics (lately), the politics of LIFE, passionate about kind peo w/boundaries, more . . .
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September 29
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LettingGo joined the Family Issues support group 1:50am
500 words to tell my story. Let's see. Beautiful, narcissistic, powerful, cold calculating parents and…
September 28
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LettingGo wrote a journal entry: still isolating but better thoughts prevail 8:05pm
Wow, it sure is devastating to realize how alone I am in the world. My mother who's alone but cold…
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LettingGo wrote a journal entry: additional goal - active self-love 7:58pm
I will think, treat, act, be the person I love the most. It will affect my diet, my priorities, exercise…
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LettingGo changed their mood to OK 7:58pm
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additional goal - active self-love
September 28, 2008 7:58pm
I will think, treat, act, be the person I love the most. It will affect my diet, my priorities, exercise daily, etc. And I will also learn better how …
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Close Codependency
Emotionally/verbally abused by very powerful family ... still. Need to let go. Worried that I won't be able to surive, or succeed (I don't want to merely survive), on my own. Mother is in bad health; she's the worst and I'm going there in two days; feel like I'm preparing to say goodbye, and it's very difficult. Need support yet have learned to isolate to survive.
Treatments
- CoDA Working / Worked
- Know how emotional abuse has brought me down; severe back problems = broken spirit. CoDa very helpful; only stopped after back surgery - couldn't sit for 2 yrs. Goal - to get outside/walk every day, to get a little dog. Anti-depressants don't work for me.
- Pets Working / Worked
- Reading Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
- Just started going bk to CoDo meetings. Great mostly.
- \"Codependent No More\" Working / Worked
- Taught me what the issues were; that it wasn't my 'fault'
Close Family Issues
500 words to tell my story. Let's see. Beautiful, narcissistic, powerful, cold calculating parents and siblings; I am different in most ways. Was punished for being different; tried to get approval for too long; now attempting to move forward without disillusionment clouding eyes. On a Clear Day You Can See Forever. Need friends, hugs, kindnesses, strategic approach to living life very well. Let's share hope-filled, practical tips, shall we?
Treatments
- Family Therapy Working / Worked
- Past tense. Partner was an abusive psychologist; our shrink agreed on that assessment; then I broke it off. Recently got in touch in a lonely moment; Mistake.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Lost faith in all but one therapist. System is set up to be imbalanced, where one therapist, who divulges nothing personal and who determines what is of value, has too much power. Too many therapists got A's in the intellectual understanding of life, but that's a completely different animal
- Talking Working / Worked
- Works great if both people self-regulate, esp when one person needs alot when you do too. Important to have more than one best friend to salvage this type of friendship.
- Writing Working / Worked
- Helps clarify, vent w/o doing harm; Great release of drama energy, broken-brain thinking; helps me realize when I'm tricking myself into repeating same old shit. Would love to start a blog of some sort.
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- This really helps me.
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