I just loss my mother to colon …
I just loss my mother to colon cancer jan.23-08......Im not really sure if im in deniel or doing okay...sucks...
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today all I been doing is crying. I been thinking alot about my friend and just been very sad. and all I could do lastnight was cry. I couldnt even sleep but maby a few hours here and their in between crying. and even though I was their when she died its like I was in deniel for a long time that she really was gone. I wonder if anybody else did that? denying that their really gone. just trying to figure out why I would do that I guess. maby because I wanted her to still be here but all in all she's no longer in pain and she's with Jesus she always seem to know what I was feeling though. I could say I was feeling one way and somehow she knew if I was really feeling that way or not. she really was a special friend to me
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It's okay to be sad. You were lucky to have found such a good friend.
milopants
Im so sorry about your friend and your sadness. I went through the same thing 3 yrs ago with my best friend. I was at the hospital when she died and I convinced myself it wasnt true, that she wasnt really gone. She was my best friend and I could tell her anything or nothing but she always knew how I felt. She was in so much pain and I know she is in a better place now, but it still hurts. Hugs for you!
betadog
I feel your pain lost my grandniece on sunday so I am hurting too.
tigger48
denial is one of the stages of grief, so what you're feeling is natural. You mention Jesus, so if I may, here is a biblical passage I committed to memory long ago. It's from Thessalonians, about the second coming of Jesus Christ.
That with the voice of the Archangel Gabriel, and the Trump of God, the dead in Christ shall rise first. Then we which remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds. So shall we be forever with them in the Lord. Wherefore comfort one another with these words.
That's from the King James version, which I know is tough to understand. I'm an old bastard though, so that's all that was around when I was memorizing it. Basically what it says is when Gabriel blows the trumpet and says "Let's go! Eveybody out of the pool!" that your friend, everybody's friends and family who have died will get up and start towards heaven. Then when they're all up there, we get to join them and be with them forever.
viejo
oh .. and I shoud apologize if you're not a christian and are offended. I understand. I'm not a christian either. I just memorize stuff that interests me.
viejo
Oh hun, Ive been shutting out the death of my best friend for about 2 years, when I realised I cried for 2 weeks on end. I hope you are ok and do know that they are in a better place and at peace. And they are probably looking down on us wishing we enjoy life and get over our mental stuff. (i'd like to believe that) *big Hug*
dortoto
I'm so sorry you lost her...I think it's so normal to feel like she's not really gone
Person913
I'm sorry for your loss. When did your friend pass away? It's alright to cry as it is a natural response and a healthy release. When I was with my father in his final moments, I cried because I knew the inevitable was going to transpire soon.
Remember the good times you had with your friend.
DMS1
Sweetie, it is natural to cry and grieve, it is the process you need to go through. Just let it come when it needs to it will help in the end. Honest.
Lots of hugs and love
ToniCB
don't worry. you will be with her again one day. i'm pretty sure she watches over you, like an angel would.
bluesun
I believe shes with Jesus also.
rambler
she passed away in march of last yr. she was very sick
passiongirl
It's okay to be sad over the loss of your friend. I lost a close friend and her unborn baby last november and there were days where I felt like I couldn't even breathe. You take it day by day and always remember to tell yourself that your life will go on and get better. Sometimes it's hard but your not alone.
singlemom08
It's ok. I lost a cousin who was in a car accident and never recovered. They kept her body alive for a week, but she wasn't there. The doctor's finally decided that was enough and pulled the plug. This hurt me so much because no one told me anything for a few days so I wouldn't insist on coming home from school. I went home the next weekend and was going to be aloud in to see her when the doctors decided to let her go. I cried for...I don't know how long. I'm crying right now, and that was during college, tweenty-five years ago. We cry for ourselves because we will never be the same, or find a friend like that. But this is good. We change. We move on. We grow. But we don't have to forget.
MaryT
MaryTurk
When my grandmother died I would have these urges to call her phone number and still do till this day. she passed 7 years ago. she was my best friend. This is natural hun. The pain has subsided a bit but the memories are always with me. Give it some time.
emeila
Hey girl! I'm real sorry about your friend. But you have to remember she is in a better place now. Denying someone is gone is part of bereavement, it takes time to get used to things and accept them. Just try to keep your mind off it, and do and be with people that make you happy! Always here for ya!!!!
Joannapanic
its good to grieve but you have to have a point in life where you have to see what you have gained and learned and do something to help with the grievance....life is too short and it is not good to grieve too long...for the love one we lost want us to be happy and to move on with life....hugs sweetie...I hope you are able to go on with life...
NYyankeedeb
IT IS NORMAL TO FEEL AND CRY. CRY IT OUT.LET IT ALL OUT.
GET HELP IF YOU NEED IT. IT'S OUT THERE. PRAYING HELPS ME.
JESUS IS THE WAY....FOR ME ANYWAYS. :)
BLESSINGS HEIDI
devine1
Hi. Denial is normal. I did that too, when my brother passed 5 years ago. Kept waiting for him to show up at my door, or drop me a surprize secret letter. It's gonna take a while...feel the feelings when you are able. Just know your friends spirit lives on.
proudmary
what you're feeling is normal. my mother died 9 yrs ago and my father 4. I was with my father when he died. I still have a hard time believing they are gone. I still cry for both of them. grief is a personal thing and no one can tell you how long it can last. no one should tell you that it's been long enough and to get over it. yes, I've had someone tell me that. so, go ahead and cry and feel the pain of the loss. over time it will lessen, but never go away. when you are feeling sad over your loss, try and remember the good times and that helps. well, it helps me anyway. so, have a good cry and I'll cry with you.
darlamyangel
Sorry your feelig so sad about your friend. I know how hard it is to lose a friend and it really really sucks! Especially when you were so close and then they leave. I've been in denial before about a death before, it took me a while to believe it too, but eventually I did in time and things have worked out. Crying is a good thing, at least your not acting out and doing crazy things. I was told this when my friend died: Don't remember the one day that your friend died, remember the thousands of days she was alive and living a great life. Hope that helps a little. Keep us updated here on DS, I want to know how you are doing. HUGS my friend! Have a good weekend.
Rachael
CrzyPurpleChic
I am so sorry that you are in pain. My thoughts are with you.
hikingchica
I am sorry that you are in so much pain and missing your friend so much. Sometimes we can never know why special people are taken from us but one thing to try and rememebr is that even though she is not here with you in person to talk with and to be with, she is with you always in spirit. Talk to her when you have peaceful moments. She will see you and she will hear you. It will make you feel better to know that she is your angel, on your shoulder, whenever you need her...I am here if you ever need to talk, cry, whatever...ok?...Once again, I am so sorry for your terrible loss....xo...~Doll~
doll2m