jstsimplyred's Journal

i am trying to work on being happy with my self...i seem to be in a better mood somewhat even though things arent great right now...ive started making friends and that seems to help alot..before i had no one to talk to and telling my 18 yr my adult problems just wasnt for me..ive started standing up for myself and thats an improvement since i seem to have boot prints all over me...but they are fading with time and each stand i take for me.......

it seems that i have started using my journal more for venting than anything else and i trully wish i had something good to talk about...well......i thought finally things were going to work out and wed be able to save our house and stay here but thats not going to happen....my in laws have told us that in 4 months we are never, ever,ever going to get another penny from them...and it wasnt said in such a nice way it was more like yall arent getting another red dime from us i NEED all my money for my new house,, like we were holding that bitch hostage....they are literally turning their back on us.we are going to be homeless soon while they are enjoying their new house...we have no idea where their new house is, they took my gay ass brother in law but wont take us.my brother in law keeps trying to take our youngest daughter telling her he can give her better oppurtunities than we can....i think weve not done to bad in raising her and her sister but youd think we were stupid,hillbillies with no education according to his family...no offense hillbillies....lol.....i thought shed at least give us until the end of the year..i just started working after having health issues for almost 4 yrs and i was trying to get my family on our feet..i mean ding dang weve reduced our bills some what,we still have the same bills but they arent as much due to cutting back  but we are still living week to week....why is it you try to help yourself be a better person and the people who are supposed to help you just shit on you..oh well i guess thats life