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Self Esteem Mood

Monday, July 14, 2008

I'm having a hard time with my self esteem any more. Even though my husband and I are doing good in so many ways, I'm still finding it hard to keep a good self esteem. It's only been a couple of months since the whole divorce situation happened and I keep worring about it. Is it going to happen again? Is he going to wake up a decide he doesn't want to be with me anymore? I just can't seem to live in the moment, I guess is the right way of putting it. I keep telling myself that I need to ask him if he's even still thinking about it and I just can't bring myself to do it. I think, "hey things are getting better why bring it up", so I chicken out. I know he loves me. I just can't get over that only a couple of months ago he was wanting a divorce. It keeps lingering in the back of my mind. It's brought my self esteem down because I doubt myself as a wife. I know I need to talk to him about this, but in all honestly I'm scared to. Which is such a contridiction to what I said about us doing so much better, I know. It's just that I want to keep the good things that we've changed and fixed, and I guess not deal with the big bad problem we had a couple of months ago--divorce. We've been able to talk about everything else and any issues or problems we've had lately, but this one thing I can't get off my tongue which means I can't get it outta my head.

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I'm so sorry your feeling that way. You seem like a lovely caring, peaceful and thoughtful person. Your a great mum to your kids and you should have a very high self esteem. As scary as it is (I've been there not to long ago....) I think you should tell him how you feel. I'm sure he can sense your insecurity but probably doesn't want to ask. If you tell him what your feeling it'll get off your chest and avoid misunderstanding. He might think you're unhappy with him.
Good luck, I can understand how stressed you probably feel...hug hug hug

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