justsomeone's Journal

Life has been good latley.  I've decided since I can't seem to find a job I'll create my own.  I am now a Pure Romance Consultant and I'm pretty excited about it. Casey gave me the money to get it started and he told me he believes in me and thinks that I will do well. It felt good to know there is at least one person out there who doesn't think I will fail at everything I do. Needless to say I've been very busy and staying active has certainly taken the edge off some of the things that have been going on in life. I ended my college course with a b+ and I'm very happy about that as well.New class starts next week!

I am so happy!  I am now getting an A in my college class!!  We only take one at a time there because they are so accelerated. I  guess I doubted that I was capable of such a thing.  Seems like people I love really had a habit of telling me I was an idiot.  My dad would even tell me I was "dumber than a box of rocks".  I don't think he was ever serious but still, it sticks.    Casey got to come home for the weekend and it was an incredibly awesome weekend but now hes gone again until next Monday.  I really HATE that part of his job.  I'm sure if I insisted he find something different he would but what kind of person, girlfriend, would that make me.  Its my own insecurity that makes me hate it.Almost every person I've ever been with was a cheater.  I know in my heart of hearts that Casey isn't like that but its really hard to remember that sometimes.  I work so hard to not let my past affect my future but its hard.  I couldn't have found a better guy.  He is so patient and understanding.