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I bought the Go Go Crunch Workout DVD at Target like a month ago and I used it to exercise yesterday for the first time. It's fun and I feel "Sexy" while working out. LOL. I look forward to doing it again tonight. I'm going to try to exercise 3 days a week!
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Sometimes I wish I could just turn off all my senses and not feel anything. The only voice that I want to hear is God's. My mother in law moved 5 mins up the road and everytime I go over there I am reminded of my husband. She's a good grandmother and loves her grandkids so she is always asking for them. He is in the process of moving out of his apartment so he moved everything into her house. When I go over there to visit I sit on his couch and dine at his table. It's crazy because it's like I can't get far enough away. Plus to make things worse is I hear about what hes doing and what hes up too. His sister, my sister in law don't do it on purpose it's just in general conversation...I'm like God please, Help Me! I can't run fast enough. It's kinda of funny because I keep trying to run away from everything but then I end up having to face it. I just pray that God's Grace continue to substain me and that I am able to stand and Overcome by his Mighty Power.
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I tried to run but God won't let you, why? You remember God asking you if you would stand in the gap for your husband. You remember him saying this is a life and death battle for him and he needs a saint to fight in the spritual realm for him. The way you face hearing and seeing is head on with the Holy Spirit and your Angels. You are preparing for the battle and God has us in bootcamp to face what we think is unbearable but then He brings us through. What an awesome God we serve.
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all the best.
I wrote this email to another DS Member and I felt like it could possibly inspire others.
God hears all your prayers and he is very close to the broken hearted. He cares deeply for you and loves you.
I know how you feel about wanting no one to know. When everything first happened I cared more about what people thought about me then I did about anything else. I felt so stupid and I didn't want people to feel sorry for me. Everyone eventually found out and they did there best to offer support but I felt so alone because they didn't know what I was going through. None of my friends or my family had been through abandonment. My mom would offer words of support but they sometimes fail on deaf ears because she didn't know what I was going through. Truthfully only God got me through it. I didn't have DS when my husband left, I didn't know anyone who had been abandoned and I felt so alone. I had tons of friends and family but I still felt so alone. I cried out to God with everything I had and he began to speak to me and lead me to scriptures and to different christian websites. The Word of God became real to me. I have a list of scriptures that I had to meditate on day and night. I printed out daily devotionals and I read them over and over again. I went to bible.com everyday to read the prayer of the day and the scripture of the day. I went to church faithfully. I listened to christian music. I sought God with all I had and I found him.
I used to put all my hope in my Husband but now my hope is in the Lord. He is the creator and lover of my soul and He said he would never leave me nor forsake me. Your husband left you but God will never leave you. Even when we are unfaithful to him, he is still faithful to us. It took my Husband leaving for me to really find God and know his love. I depended on a man to do what only God could do.
I still have hope that God will save my husband and bring us back together but even if that doesn't happen I am fine. In the beginning I thought I would die, but now my happiest is no longer based on him returning home. I can be happy with or without him and that's how God wants us to be. He wants to be 1# in our life. He doesn't want anything to come before him and for a long time my husband was my God but not anymore. I can live without him and I can be happy without him. I can't live without God and I can't be happy without him. LOL. See how things change?
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That was very inspirational. You sound like you know what's important in your life.
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:) you are funny, keep it up!
sc2kids4me
keep it up your doing great.
dre42
ohhh. i want to try this!
Cynthia35
Yes, I started walking about 3 years ago. I love it! I was actually up to 3 miles but now the arthritis in both knees is demanding double knee surgery this month but I can't wait then I will be able to do my belly dancing video all the way through. This video and the Shimmy series on FitTV makes you feel real sexy and it's a very good workout. You go girl! We will be extra fine this Summer!
tpopa