Just want to cry...
July 16, 2008 7:46pm
For some personal reasons (NOT hormone related), I just want to cry...
I'm not sure whether it's good tears or bad tears.
it's just that …
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SnowHeart’s Profile
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About Me
i'm a stay at home wife (for now) and doing freelance work. I'm a passionate (but not impulsive) person.
Interests
I love poetry, philosophy, drawing/painting, making handicrafts, reading, writing, watching TV, daydreaming, and hiking.
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Thursday
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SnowHeart updated their status 4:36pm
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Wednesday
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SnowHeart gave lvnikita a Hug 10:05pm
Yay, I am so so so happy and excited for you! :))) Sending you more prayers and baby dusts! {{{{{{{HUGE…
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SnowHeart commented on lvnikita’s journal entry Second IUI Update.... 10:04pm
Wow!! That's wonderful! I'm so so so happy for you! Good thoughts, prayers, and baby dust all on their…
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SnowHeart gave catlover24 a Hug 9:41pm
Hi and thank you for the hugs... I'm totally with you... but let's both try *not* to... I'm here and…
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SnowHeart updated their status 7:26pm
I'm wondering why things have to be this difficult???…
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have you ever had dreams
July 15, 2008 12:07pm
have you ever had dreams
have you ever known how it feels like
to have hope, or so it seems
to get carried away while riding a bike
as the wind …
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Silence
July 13, 2008 3:45pm
Yeah, silence...
is the worst treatment that one can get from someone you love.
Silence
is more powerful than a billion words.
And the one
who has the …
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feeling horrible
July 9, 2008 11:25pm
I feel horrible, I just do.
Too much going on to explain.
in a nutshell,
it's that every time i thought things were looking up
every time I …
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Hugbook
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Hug
Thanks for the hug and the prayers. I am excited. I am feeling really confident. I hope that feeling lasts and ends up being true.
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I’m With You
having a hard time... fighting ,just want to give up,
Hug
Thank you so much. I am glad you are feeling a little better emotionally. I am not feeling well physically.
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Flower
Thank you girl! How are you today? I pray that you are doing well.
Hug
Thanks & HUGS back to you!
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Support Groups
Close Miscarriage
My husband and I were so thrilled to discover we were pregnant 3 plus month ago. However, our dreams of becoming parents were shattered at our 10th week ultrasound when they found that the baby didn't have heartbeat and was probably already passed away for a couple weeks at least. We waited for 10 more days and prayed for a mirable, but nothing could help us to get our baby back anymore. And I was unable to miscarry on my own. So we eventually made the heartwrentching decision to have a D&C...
Treatments
- D&C Working / Worked
- It worked in the sense that the dr did take out the product of conception as revealed by tests. However, my hormone level is hard to get down and my period is still pretty screwed, besides the emotional trauma that miscarriage has brought me.
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- Yeah, i do feel a little better after letting it out. But then I'm not sure how much it's actually helping...
- Prayer Working / Worked
- Oh, this helped loads -- it was such great comfort to pray and know that my baby is in a better place now. Although I'm still grieving for *my* loss of him, at least I know *he* is OK now...
- Writing Working / Worked
- I've written quite a lot since my miscarriage and it did help so much. I feel as if my blog (a secret one on Wordpress) is listening to me and I can be completely honest with how I feel with my blog. I always cry when writing and then feel much better afterwords.
- Talking Considering
- I think I've just come out of a stage where I just want to isolate myself. Now I really want to talk to someone. Sigh, I've pushed away all of my friends! I'll try and see if I can talk to some of them or a professional and see if this helps.
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ParentI lost my dad five years ago. He was not really old and didn't want to die. I was young and confused and scared and very deeply sad and had school/work to deal with. My mom was too devastated to talk about it with me. There was no closure for me. I wasn't able to grief properly. It was a long process. And now I've finally made peace, somehow...
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- it wasn't until much much later that I was able to cry. It really helped.
- Helping Others Working / Worked
- Helping others in similar situations or just whoever is in need of any kind of support has given my life a new purpose and direction.
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- It worked at the time immediately after my dad's passing. But being the only way I knew how to deal with this, it left big problems in the long run.
- Poetry Working / Worked
- Helped me to express and acknowledge my feelings.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- I still pray for him even now and it gives me tremendous courage and comfort.
- Remembering Working / Worked
- I remember my dad through writing about him and us. It really helps.
Open Depression
I wish my family understands but they don't. They think they say what they say/do what they do to help me, but they are just aggrevating the situation. If they don't understand, if they can't help, that's OK. They could just respect my need to be left alone. But they won't even do THAT. I feel like I'm going completely insane. All I've ever wanted from them is to be accepted for who/what I am and then be left alone. I guess that's too much to ask.
Treatments
Open Insomnia
My life is emptiness / Restless, meaningless / Ephemerality / Reflected / Mirror of Eternity / Gazing - staring -- / Back at me / Expressionless / Sleeplessness / Eyes without Body / My Soul / Without Me
Open Healthy Relationships
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