Searching4nansw's Journal

Somedays I feel like my old self, and others I wonder whos body I'm trapped in. I'm dealing with issues that I feel no one understands. Sometimes I feel lost. The friends that I used to be so close with yesterday seem like strangers today. Somedays, I feel invinceable, while others I feel defeated before I step out of bed. I can't understand why I feel so different from day to day. I don't know what to make of this new life. I don't know what the people around me think. Just when I thought I had life figured out I've been thrown a curve ball and I can't remember the last time I've felt so unsure, and afraid. They say fear is useful. I still haven't figured out how to use the fear that's brewing inside of me. I guess I will just have to take the good with the bad. I suppose in the long run I'll figure out where I'm going and the confusion, and pain will melt away. That's a day I can't wait for. Until then I'll just grin and bare it.