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July 17, 2008 Mood

Thursday, July 17, 2008 | A General Update story

I don't know what to say today. It is all starting to sound the same. I guess I will just go with a conscience stream of thought...

I am still with my sister, but on an emotional roller coaster ride with what I should do. I know I need to think about what would be best for me and Jack, but I feel sorry for my husband. Every day he asks when I am coming home and tells me how much he misses me, loves me, and needs me. I think he is genuine in saying this; I think there is a scared little boy inside that is afraid of and can't control his "demons". I think he wants to get rid of them, but it is so ingrained in him that he won't be able to do it. I need to stay separated from him because I just can't endure the nitpicking and put-downs and criticisms. I feel so much healthier and stronger right now, but I feel sad for my husband. He's such a lonely person.

Anyway, those are my thoughts for now. Sigh.

Hug jacks...

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dont feel sorry for him. dont.
it is all a ploy you know that and he will go right back to what he was. and you are right there is a scared little boy inside him thre always is and that is why they ar the way they are.
Think about how much sronger and happier you feel because he is not there to tear you down every second. and he is a lonely person and he still will be with you there. It is his problem not yours now. The best for you and your son is to move on and be strong and live the life you couldnt.

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