Thorneyone's Journal

I have really lost my patience with my partner, he needs help, he is always drunk, he addicted to methadone but never has taken Heroine, he takes strong sleeping tablets and drinks alcohol everynight, he waffles on and repeats himself most of the time, he talks a loads of shit. Last week he gave my 22 year old son his marching orders and told him to find somewhere else to live, he is viewing rented accomodation tomorrow although his dad said this under the influence of alcohol and for no good reason but my son has had enough of his dad so he wants to leave. Tonight my partner picked on my 20 year old daughter and said has to move in with my son which is not up to my partner anyway but he told her she has to go also, she answered him back by saying don't boss me around and don't talk to me like a child and because she said this he went to hit her, I then protected her by scrapping with him on the floor, nobody got hurt has he was too pissed to actually fight but I lost my rag when I seen him raise his hand to my daughter again for no good reason.

My partner has gone out and bought an expensive car on HP  that we cannot really afford so he says I have to pay all bills whilst he keeps payments up fore the car...no holiday again this year for my younger 2 kids by the looks of it. It's me that has been paying for his alcohol habit, if nothing goes his way he threatens to leave, whenever we argue he eggs me on to chuck him out. We have separated on numerous occasions but I always end up taking him back, mostly because I end up feeling sorry for him. I cannot carry on like this for the rest of my life, it is affecting my job now has I am over tired and am always thinking of stuff going on at home. I need the courage to get rid off the partner but it will be hard as my younger son is a daddies boy, my younger daughter however does not care if her dad is around or not, she always stays out of his way as she finds him annoying and embarassing.

Theres loads of things about my partner that annoy me but I don't want to bore everyone plus myself...

anyway thats my little rant... over and out.