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Not A Good Month!!!!
Saturday, April 5, 2008 | A Painful story

Today is my mothers birthday, mine is coming up next week. Then the anniversary of my sons' passing on the 19th and my daughters  birthday will soon follow on the 20th of April. Then my oldest brothers birthday is 24th and nephews is 28th.  This is a very sad month for me.  April use to be one of the best months of the year for me and my daughter, now only sadness, anger and dispare are felt.  Ofcourse these thoughts of anxiousness start in March and don't end till well after July because, my sons birthday is July 20th.  So, the spring to summer months aren't as great as they use to be.  It's sad the think that one tragedy could make a whole month of birthdays go by without the happiness once felt.  I don't know if I will ever get that wonderful feeling of celebration back in my life or for anyone born in this month.  I know it sounds selfesh, but I don't know any other way to feel about it at the moment.  I just put on a good face for everyone involved and try to be happy for my daughter since it was the day before here birthday that he passed.

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1. 

   Just a thought, but try celebrating the day anyway for the memory of the great that was in your son while he was with you. Make the day a momento to the best of your son like a remembrance. I have lost my brother and he was my best friend, but I can tell you that his funeral was like a celebration of his life and every detail was gone over and I left there happy for having spent the time I did with him. When his birthday rolls around i toast one to him literally. I don't actually drink. But I say a prayer for him and send my loviing thoughts his way and I can feel the warmth we once shared. I had him for nearly 30 years, so that is a lot of good memories.
   Hope this helps, please do not hold on to the hurt, it is obviously not healthy for you. Forgive, but never forget and go on.
   If I am too pushy, please feel free to tell me to back off. I need not cause you any more grief.
   Best to you!
   Mary

   
   

   Maryinillinois

2. 

   What a sad month April has become for you. But you have happy events to commemorate too. Don't forget the one's still here, especially your daughter, she needs you very much.

   
   

   rememberme

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