JustCallMeGator's Journal

Self Esteem Mood

Wednesday, April 9, 2008 | A General Update story

Well...today is a new day, lets hope it's pain free productive day. I'm back to seeing my therapist every week. She wants to work on my self esteem, I am always beating myself up, never anthing positive to say about myself no matter what I do. I have always felt this way about myself. I remember when I was little, I was happy all the time, our neighbor called me "Happy" because I was always smiling. Then when I got my period things changed drasticly, hormones maybe? I went from being called "Happy" to being called "Gator" my Dad said I had a dispostion like an alligator, I'd snap at people....he was right I was soooo miserable. I think there was more to it, I had sever mood swings, I could be so happy I felt giddy and then in a matter of minutes I'd crash and be miserable. Anyway, all I know is I need to find that place where I am not beating myself up anymore or putting myself down. It's not going to be easy, it took a long time to get this way, I'll probably be in therapy for the rest of my life......lol

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I had this problem too. Here are a few thoughts on Self Esteem...I was always looking outside myself for strength and confidence, but it comes from within. It is there all the time.
There are admirable potentialities in every human being. Believe in your strength and your youth. Learn to repeat endlessly to yourself, 'It all depends on me.'
Having once decided to achieve a certain task, achieve it at all costs of tedium and distaste. The gain in self-esteem of having accomplished a tiresome labor is immense.
Believe in yourself! Have faith in your abilities! Without a humble but reasonable confidence in your own powers you cannot be successful or happy
Dr Fred

Eyestwo22
Being a mother of three girls, we referred to PMS as the attack of the hormone fairy. Take care now.

Fouty