PinkFlower9804's Journal

I've not written in here for awhile now... so, lets see. Since I wrote last I've found out that the Pshycologist at my daughters school says she has a huge anxiet problem and something called Selective Mutism. She is being tested for ADD at school and also through her own Psycologist. Friday morning she went for her first round of testing with her DR. it lasted 2 hours. He said she did well and wants to see her again next week for 2 hours, again. My 4yr ols son went to the Pediatric Endo. DR. for a follow up. He actually got some good news! :) Yeah! I really needed some good news, so this helped me some. He actually grew 1.33cm and gained 1 & 1/2lbs in three months!! He goes back in 4 months to see if he has been able to grow some more. I really hope so, I dont want him to get daily shots of the hgh. I just want him to be able to be as tall as the other kids though, and sometimes I get sick of the looks and staring after people find out how old he is. My poor, poor daughter...I think she is destined to be like Mommy. She suffers from anxiety so bad she cant even talk to her own teacher, sometimes even family. I hope she doesnt get the depression too. I will try and keep a watchful eye, I dont want her to suffer for years needlessly. As for my husband, why can't he seem to give me what I need? Am I really asking that much of someone who is supposed to love me? but then...how can he love me, when I can't even love myself? How can one person be so alone when they are supposed to have a partner in life?