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Feeling:		- Ok
Gender:	Female
Age:	52
Location:	Edmonds, WA
Interests: movies, comedy and action. Exercise. Trying to get healthy. my kitty!!! I love my kitty !! she makes me laugh...I have a helium balloon for her and she pulls it around the apartment from one room to another she cracks me up..She is wonderful a great healer..My son got my kitty for me..I dont think he knew what a wonderful gift she was...My kitty and I are so close!
About Me: 50 years old single mom 28 years pulling, survivor from childhood trauma, art lover, part=time artist, poet, hardworking honest person with traumatic haunting past. I exercise to try to beat age..but am very much affected by aging especially when Menopause hit me. I did not know that it would be harder to keep things normal as you age..so I figure if I can exercise as much as possible I will fight age and eat right etc..I will change this about me thing daily probably..as I am so up and down. I was abused picked on as a child..my hair was cut very short at age 13 or 14 (seventh grade) I never recovered from that..I have struggled since then to have a hold on beauty..but began pulling hair out this has gotten worse the older I get..I have a big head of hair..Maybe God knew I would be pulling it out but the pulling needs to stop..my mom is upset as she is losing her hair..and I feel even more guilty when I pull mine out now because of that. I have wanted help for years..but have come to my computer to hopefully understand I am not alone. My depressions goes up and down..and the hair pulling gets worse some days..especially when I am alone on weekends. I found out I have hepatitis c..I dont drink, or take drugs but just one dumb mistake in my teenage years must of been all it took. Having this is so upsetting I cannot express it along with everything else that has happened to me. I dont feel I can ever have a relationship with a guy anymore for fear of not knowing how to have hep c and have a relationship..I dont know if it is possible. I just joined the hep c support group also..I feel these two big issues are what I really need help with..

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Wednesday, May. 14

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Tuesday, May. 13

caroleclc gave caroleclc Advice in Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) 6:32am

caroleclc wrote a comment on caroleclc's Journal Entry 6:26am

Thank you Morpheus... I think so too.

Monday, May. 12

caroleclc gave ammxo9 Advice in Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) 9:11pm

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05/11/08	My son was the best..he bought me a dvd and made breakfast and dinner..He was so great..!! I have been sort of ill feeling lately...not sure why....I am more nervous about my Hep C then last week. .. Still upset at times very up... [More]
05/08/08	AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH<<<<<<< I am so unbelievably upset about this..I keep realizing what was in my stolen purse..what should I do...I have to pay 40. to have the locks in my apartment changed....but it is very expensive to ... [More]
05/07/08	One day at a time??????? thoughts can really control our emotions..you choose to fee... [More]
05/07/08	when I think of maybe opting to not have treatment...........................sigh..I really dont want to be that sick..I react so badly to medicines i... [More]
05/03/08	I never have enough time to get here and look at the support and ask for support and these last two weeks when I needed it the most I just would go to bed early and wake anxious (nervous) I have been trying to get the ... [More]

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pbx607 (05/14/08)

thanks for the add!
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pbx607 (05/13/08)

Hi Carole good luck to you. We'd love to have you join the Trichotillomania (hair pulling) group! JoJo
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Morpheus (05/11/08)

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Goal End Date is Mar 31, 08 47 days ago.

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Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

my father cut my long hair shorter than Twiggy's (who remembers Twiggy haha??) when I was in the 7th grade. I am 51 and still am affected by this, I was picked on as a child and pull my hair now, I cant stop!
Treatments
Effexor xr and trazadone (Somewhat Helpful) I have used many antidepressants in the past year My mood is more tolerable with the effexor but still lonely and depressed and pull as soon as I get home from work. single with no prospects
7 Members 23 Posts

Hepatitis C

I found out two years ago I have chronic Hep c I dont want to go through the course as I am not mentally stable and dont think I could handle feeling sick all the time..I was so upset when I found I had it as I thought I was going to die soon after ..The doctor 2 years ago said my tests looked pretty good..just getting results this week after not being tested over 2 years..
Treatments
Milk Thistle (Too Soon To Tell) I just take this as someone told me it was good to take.
exercise effexor xr trazadone (Working / Worked) I am still upset about having this ..the meds keep me sort of calm better than before..I was hysterical when I found out..I also take lorazepam.
5 Members 169 Posts

Depression
Clinical (Major) Depression

I am up and down. But feeling better than I have in years..now when I get depression it doesnt last as long. But sometimes The word Suicide pops in my head..and even though I would not ever do it..that means I am pretty low and I need to get out and do the things that make it better now..Like calling someone or going for a walk
Treatments
Effexor (Working / Worked) it works better than anything I have taken..still have setbacks
Trazodone (Working / Worked) good for sleep..but for me causes my weight to go up a little ..so I have to exercise even more.
workout in gym about 4 to 5 days a week (Working / Worked) very good but sometimes during workout I feel very upset
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