sallyforth's Journal

Well, I have to admit that I've been really busy lately, but I also haven't written in a while b/c i've pulled a few times and just felt really crappy and defeated by it.  I had been doing so well, and it just really felt like a total failure.   I'm trying really, really hard not to see it that way, and to still look at the positives, so here goes. 

Even though I did pull, it was only a few each time.  I really never had one of those sessions where you pluck out everything in a frantic spree of insanity.  I stopped myself as soon as I really realized what I was doing.  I also knew that I would hit this point, when I really started to see my lashes come back, when it would get SOOO hard to not pull out just one or two.  So I feel like I recognized that and that helped me stop before things got really ugly.  I also reminded myself how long I've been doing this--over 20 years!!!--and that I can't just expect myself to up and quit without any difficulty, even though I did have a great first two weeks.  This is when it gets really hard.  Also, though, it's the first time in a long time that I've seen myself with lashes and it is really motivating.  I don't WANT to have bald eyes anymore!!!  That has helped get me back on track.

I don't know what to say about my goal now.  I guess I will just keep going with this month and see how it goes.