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Monday, June 23, 2008

I have been doing so good. I haven't cried, yelled or swore. I have let more bad words fly today and I can't stop crying. How did I let this happen? So he is a shit. I should just let it roll off my back. I am so mad at myself for falling apart and letting him have the upper hand for the moment. I am demanding it of myself that it is just a moment. I refuse to give him the upper hand ever again.

If anyone doesn't know what I'm talking about I posted it on Divorce after twenty years "I am in a rage".

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You are an amazing woman! It is just a moment and you have ever right to be mad as hell.

Today is another day and remember you are strong!!
Hugs from me to you!!

Missiann
Well we all go there once in awhile....I was driving home after taking my son back to his house (better known as Hell's Gate) and was screaming that I wished he was just dead.....so yeah, we all go there, then we get over it, and move on.

Sorry that happened to you...(((HUGS)))

hockeymom5592
Yup - I've been having panic attacks, crying, and truly , for the first time in my life, hating someone. Near as I can tell this is normal. I am taking inordinate pleasure in doing small things that mess with his head - like hiding keys that he "accidently" left in the house after cleaning part of his share of the house to get ready for the realtor. Or going into the coffee shop (our partnered business) for coffee while he is up here cleaning, then sending him an email telling him the espresso is sour and tastes of chemicals. Stupid first grade kind of things, but it sure makes me feel better imagining him jumping through hoops to find keys or fix the espresso machine.

With luck, you won't sink to my level - but crying and cussing - just okay in anyone's book. Tears release the same endorphins as laughing so go at it!

KatieBee