want2bstable's Journal

I was diagnosed with Bipolar rapid cycling in 2003. I have had trouble holding on to a job 2 1/2 years is the longest and it seems to be getting worse only 9-12 months.

I had a great job one that I was very happy with. Stress brings on hypermanias and depressions for me. I was under the care of a psychiatrist. I told him that I was having trouble sleeping and when I did get to sleep I sometimes slept through the alarm clock. He told me that this had nothing to do with bipolar. I never missed a day of work (but was late anywhere from 2 minutes to the worst was 36 minutes)I was also under a lot of personal stress at the time. Where I worked we get occurrences and on certain days (quite a few of them) you could get 2 and 1 if you were late.

I lost the job. When you lose a job you lose your medical insurance I have been in a deep depression for 3 months now. I've cut out all my friends and only allow my closet family in my life. My children are grown and live out of the home. My daughter trys her best to understand me and my son doesn't even try he just pretends nothing is happening.

Right now I need to get back on medicine so that I can be stable enough to get a job and I need coping skills to keep a job.

Does anyone else have any of the same problems as me and any suggestions on how to become more stable and deal with the stress that does come into my life?

I am going to try to get out and go to a bipolar support group tonight. I say that because it is hard to get out of the house. I am so depressed I don't like talking to people or being around them and I don't like myself right now (let a hypermania hit and of course that all changes).