barefootsoul's Journal

YES I AM YELLING IN THIS....... AMERICANS ARE BEING KILLED BY AMERICA'S NEED TO MAKE MONEY AND THEN WE HAVE THE NERVE TO CONDEMN IRAQ WHILE WE SILENTLY KILL OUR OWN, OH WE HAVE A SLY GOVERNMENT............READ ON...

O M G ......IS ANY HUMAN MEANT TO SERIOUSLY LIVE WITH THIS MUCH PHYSICAL PAIN, NAMED FIBROMYALGIA?

I WON'T EVEN MENTION THE EMOTIONAL PAIN OF LOSING MY MOTHER THAT HAS COMPLETLY TAKEN A BACK SEAT SOME WHERE, I DONT EVEN HAVE THE STRENGTH TO CRY. I'VE BEEN ILL FOR TWENTY PLUS YEARS AND ONCE AGAIN, TODAY,  I LISTENED TO A UNEMPATHETIC, HEALTHY, MONEY MAKING MAN CALLED A DOCTOR, TELL ME I  MUST FIND A WAY TO LEARN TO LIVE WITH THE PHYSICAL PAIN, (MY PAIN TOLERANCE IS LOW DON'T YOU KNOW).  AS IF I HAVE NOT TRIED EVERY HUMANLY POSSIBLE METHOD KNOWN BEYOND HIS LIMITS TO REMOVE THE PAIN. AS IF I AM A SIMPLE MINDED WOMAN THAT WANTS ATTENTION, THAT LOVES EATING DRUGS AND ENJOYS SPENDING HALF OUR INCOME ON INSURANCE AND PILLS SO I CAN SIT IN HIS 100 DOLLAR, 5 MINUTE OFFICE JUST SO I CAN LISTEN TO SOME PATRONIZING SNIDE SMART A.. TELL ME WHAT HE THINKS HE KNOWS ABOUT ME AND MY DIS-EASE.  I HEARD HIS AFFLIATE OUTSIDE LAUGHING, "I CALLED DR CAROLL THIS MORNING TO ASK HIM WHAT HE WAS WEARING TODAY, HAHAHA". I WANTED TO EITHER HIT SOMEONE OR SWITCH BODIES WITH MY DOCTOR SO I COULD PATRONIZE HIM AND TREAT HIM LIKE HE IS SOME DEPRESSIVE ENTITY I NEED TO AVOID AND SHOVE OFF TO SOME OTHER DOCTOR SO I DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH HIM, WALK OUT OF THE OFFICE AND MOVE ON TO MY HAPPY LIFE...AND NOT EVEN THINK TWICE ABOUT IT.  DO YOU FEEL THIS WAY? DO YOU FEEL GUILTY FOR FEELING THIS WAY? WELL DON'T!!!! YOU DESERVE ALL YOUR FEELINGS, YOU ARE THE ONE PUTTING THE LIFE IN THEIR STYLES!!! THEY LEARNED IN COLLEGE EARLY HOW TO TAKE CARE OF THEIR BODIES AND THEY HAVE THE INCOMES TO DO IT PROPERLY. OH A FEW HERE AND THERE HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO ESCAPE THE SICK MONSTER IT'S NOT ALL BLACK AND WHITE. IF YOU WANT THE REAL ANSWER TO GETTING BETTER OR AT LEAST WHAT TRUTH I KNOW READ ON.....

- SOMEBODY TAKE THE BLINDERS OFF BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE!

I'VE BEEN UNDER ICE, NECK BRACES, PAIN MEDS, BED REST ALL SELF HELP BECAUSE MY CURRENT DOC IS AN IDIOT THAT SHOULD NOT BE SERVING FIBRO PATIENTS. WHEN I GAIN THE STRENGTH I WILL BE FINDING AND CALLING A NEW DOCTOR (PRAYERFULLY). I'VE SPENT TWO DAYS ONLINE IN BLEEPS OF TIME THAT MY ARMS WILL ALLOW SEARCHING FOR THOSE THAT ARE SUITED TO MY NEEDS, THIS IS A HARD THING TO FIND. I HAVE TO BELIEVE THAT NOT EVERY DOCTOR IS COMPLETELY IN THIS FOR THE MONEY AND WILL HELP BEYOND WHAT MY INSURANCE WILL PAY FOR. I NEED ACCUPUNCTURE, IVE NUTRIONALS, A HUG!

MY NECK IS SO WEAK, I EXERCISE AND IT GETS WORSE, I DONT IT GETS WORSE. IT'S NOT A FLARE IT'S A DETOX OFF MEDS THAT HAVE BEEN MASKING THE PAIN. I TAKE NORCO AND A HOST OF OTHERS DRUGS SO I CAN'T IMAGINE THE PAIN I WOULD ENDURE BEING OFF EVERYTHING. MY IMMUNE SUPRESSO SHOTS BARELY TOUCH MY PAIN LEVELS AND MY STOMACH IS IN KNOTS TRYING TO WRITE THIS AND ENDURE THE COLD ICE AND SPASMS SHOOTING UP AND DOWN MY SPINE. MY LUMBAR AND CERVICAL ARE IN A COMPETITION TO SEE WHICH CAN CAUSE THE MOST HAVOC AND I HAVE NO CLUE WHICH IS CAUSING WHAT. THE ONLY EPIDURAL DOCTOR IN OUR TOWN IS BOOKED ALL YEAR, I HAVE ANOTHER TWO MONTH WAIT. I AM SORRY FOR THE CAPS I STARTED AND I HATE INCONSISTANCY AND I CAN'T AFFORD TO GO BACK AND RESTART.

SO HERE I AM, MY POINT OF VIEW AND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, I WON'T APOLOGIZE FOR IT...IM SO HOPPING MAD AND MAYBE THAT IS WHAT MORE OF US NEED TO GET IN ORDER TO MAKE REAL CHANGE. I DON'T KNOW IF I AM MORE ANGRY OVER THE MONOPOLY IN KEEPING PEOPLE SICK OR THE GAS PRICE GAMES.

TRADITIONAL MEDICINE!!!!!!!!!!! IF MY BRAIN COULD THINK STRAIGHT IN THE MIDST OF THIS PAIN ENOUGH TO GET OFF MY PILLOW AND COOK MYSELF A MEAL OR TALK COHERENTLY I'D BE MARCHING ON WASHINGTON. I ONCE WAS INTELLIGENT AND PRODUCTIVE, RAISED FOUR CHILDREN WITHOUT CHILD SUPPORT AND KNEW HOW TO LAUGH FROM THE BELLY AS WELL AS HELP OTHERS, ALL THAT IS GONE.

IT'S TIME TO STOP DRUGGING AMERICA, MASKING ILLNESSES AND MAKING US WORSE WITH DRUGS INSTEAD OF SLEEPING IN BED WITH BIG CORPORATIONS THAT ARE KILLING AMERICANS IN THE NAME OF KEEPING THE USA COMMERCE ALIVE! HUNDREDS DIE EVERY DAY FROM DRUG SIDE EFFECTS AND OR MORE ILLNESS BROUGHT ON BY THE DRUG.

AMERICA NEEDS GENUINE NUTRITION WITHOUT CHEMICALLY TREATED, BOXED PRESERVATIVE FOODS. WE NEED ORGANIC HEALTHY LIVING WE NEED MEDICAL CARE THAT IS MORE CONCERNED ABOUT ALTERNATIVE, HOLISTIC THERAPY AND PREVENTIVE MEDICINE INSTEAD OF REACTIVE MEDICINE. THINK OF LAB CREATED MEDICINES? THEY HAVE BEEN CHANGED ON A CELLULAR LEVEL FROM PLANT FORM JUST LIKE OUR FOOD. OUR BODIES SEE IT AS AN INVADER, IT DOESNT RECOGNIZE IT AS HEALTHY HELP IT'S ALIEN AND OUR BODIES GO INTO OVER DRIVE TO PROTECT US BUT IN THE END ATTACK US INSTEAD.

WE NEED A PROACTIVE SOCIETY THAT REALLY CARES ABOUT THOSE WHO ARE ALREADY SUFFERING. MY BODY IS DYING, MY CELLS ARE DYING AND I CANT AFFORD THE NATURAL REMEDIES LET ALONE NATURAL FOODS. ITS CHEAPER TO BUY A BOX OF MACARONI THAN CHEMICALLY FREE GROWN LETTUCE AND FRUIT. OUR BODIES WERE MADE TO EAT FRESH THINGS FROM THE SOURCE AND IF THEY AREN'T THEN IT'S A FORGEIGN SUBSTANCE THAT GETS TREATED AS SUCH. THE IMMUNE SYSTEM IS A MAJOR ARMY FIGHTING FOR US NO WONDER WE ARE TIRED AND IN PAIN.

EVERYTHING AROUND US IS TOXIC FROM THE CLOTHES WE WEAR, THE LIQUID WE WASH THEM IN, TO THE CHLORINE ANTI BIOTIC WATER WE DRINK. YES CHLORINE ACTS AS AN ANTI BIOTIC WHEN OVER USED BREAKS DOWN THE FLORA IN OUR GUT WHICH IN TURNS CREATES A HOST OF OTHER PROBLEMS, THATS ANOTHER STORY.
EVEN THE GAS WE PUT IN OUR CARS WE TOUCH AND BREATHE IN, TO THINK WE OUR PAY A THIRD OUR PAY CHECK FOR THAT LOL. WELL I KNOW WE ARE AT LEAST. WE HAVE CHEMICALS IN OUR DEODERANTS, MAKE UP, PERFUMES, AIR FRESHNERS, EVERYTHING WE TOUCH AND WE TAKE THIS FAR FAR TOO LIGHTLY. OUR IMMUNE SYSTEMS ARE OVER LOADED AND WE WORRY ABOUT EATING SOME FISH FROM OUR RIVERS LOL. WE WOULD ALL DO MUCH BETTER LIVING ON AN ISLAND FENDING FOR OURSELVES INFACT WE RESIST WHY OTHER COUNTRIES ARE SO MUCH HEALTHIER AND THEN HAVE THE AUDACITY TO WONDER WHY ON EARTH THEY DON'T WANT TO ADOPT OUR LIFE STYLE HAHA.
FORGIVE ME FOR ANY GRAMMATICAL ERRORS, I'VE BEEN TOO WEAK TO GET MY HEAD OFF A PILLOW OR MY ARMS TO HOLD A BRUSH LET ALONE TYPE CORRECTLY.

THE HUMAN BODY IS POWERFUL BUT IN TIME IT CAN ONLY FIGHT FOR US SO LONG. I HAVE NO FANTASTIC ANSWERS FOR MYSELF BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT TO DO, BUT I CAN'T AFFORD TO DO IT.

YES, POVERTY RIGHT HERE IN AMERICA BECAUSE I AM TOO SICK TO MAKE THE MONEY TO FIX THE PROBLEMS MY OWN COUNTRY RAISED ME TO INGEST. READ THAT ONE AGAIN!

I, WE, ENDURE THE STIGMA OF BEING SICK BECAUSE I, WE, ARE NOW USELESS TO THE SOCIETY THAT AIDED IN MAKING ME/US SICK. I DON'T QUALIFY FOR DISABILITY I WAS TOO SICK TO GET MY TEN YEARS OF WORK IN, THE HOMELESS SHELTERS IN MY COMMUNITY ARE LOADED SO ARE THE MENTAL WARDS IN OUR HOSPITALS TRYING TO HELP PEOPLE JUST LIKE ME. MY HUSBAND HAS CANCER. HE WAS NEVER TOLD THAT ROUND UP WOULD MAKE HIM SICK. HIS EMPLOYER NEVER TOLD HIM HE NEEDED TO WEAR GLOVES OR A MASK. ALMOST EVERY PERSON I KNOW USES ROUND UP TO KILL WEEDS IN THEIR GRASS. IT'S A FACT THAT THIS CAUSED HIS CANCER AS ITS BEEN PROVEN THAT HIS TYPE CAN ONLY BE CAUSED BY THIS CARCINOGEN. IT IS ALSO NEAR TO IMPOSSIBLE TO GET THE BUSINESS THAT MAKES THIS TO PAY FOR THE DAMAGE. BY THE WAY (ROUND UP) THE STUFF THAT KILLS WEEDS IS MADE BY THE COMPANY THAT MADE AGENT ORANGE! THATS RIGHT THE STUFF THAT KILLED OUR OWN MEN IN VIETNAM.

DON'T USE ROUND UP FOR WEEDS!!!!!!

AMERICANS NEED TO TRANSFORM THEIR LIVES BY BEING INFORMED BUT FOR US I FEAR IT'S TOO LATE. NEITHER OF US HAVE THE ABILITY TO GAIN A GREAT ENOUGH INCOME TO FIX OUR HEALTH PROBLEMS, THE TYPE OF HELP THAT DRUGS AND REGULAR DOCTORS CANT FIX.

TELL US WHAT YOU KNOW???