HumbleRoots's Journal

Haven't been here for a time.  Into my 3rd glass of chardonnay, xanax, buspar and zoloft this morning.  I think I am losing my job.  It will be two years since I lost my great big corporate job....and as I am still in the middle of a financial disaster.....I just hope I can:

Stay healthy.

Keep sane.

Keep from having a nervous breakdown.

Keep my home.

Stay married.

Escape bankruptcy.

Continue to manage our finances and payment arrangement.

Get out of the woods.

I am not going to ride in on the white horse this time...and save the world.

I know I am going to have to go to AA or some kind of meeting.  My desire to "turn out the lights" is strong....and when things go crazy, I feel I am spinning out of control.

Not very positive is it?  Perhaps I need to read The Secret again....(as my husband suggested).

I can't believe one can go from double six figures and two years later be unable to buy groceries, and on the verge of bankruptcy.

Susie Orman said to ask your family and friends for money, to help you get through....trouble is...there is no one in my family I would ask...and those closest, I believe would say no.