eggs's Journal

In just a few minutes they will disconnect my pc and get it ready to move. it might be a ittle while before it gets back up again and i wanted to say a few things to you all. I have sssssssoooooooooooo made a connection with everyone here and am heartsick over my lack of attention to you in the last couple of days. so please hug each other in my absence and know that I'll be bugging my hubby to get me hooked back up to my new life line. My world was so isolated before. no one i know around me fully understands like the people I have met here. I have been able to express my feeling freely and felt great release from knowing there are others listening and caring. I haven't had that in a long time and will miss it very much. even if only for a few days. i am living up to my promise and throwing all kinds of things out the window and into the trash. so many unfinished projects so much guilt so much grief knowing i will never (if i ever was ) be the person to do those kinds of things. time will tell. must learn to relax with out becoming lazy. stay calm without being overdosed on drugs and stay connected to the human race without being a whiner and complainer. seems everything i choose to atempt turns into a big production. mountains out of mole hills etc. going from one extreem to another. untill fibromyalgia made the choice for me. my world has to be redesigned. surfaces need to be sluffed so that something uniquely me can begin all over again.out with the old... in with the older.......... lol ..............but wiser.........