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Friday, June 6, 2008

A year ago TODAY, I was living on a friends couch, completely broke, no family, with the county sheriffs knocking down every door they could to find me, with a felony warrant (that i was obsconding from) I was driving on a suspended license in a car that had expired plates, and I was going to detroit for some heroin, with very little money. On the drive down, I was withdrawing, and it hit me... "jail cannot be worse than this" I was a prisoner in my own body, and I was screaming to get out. I called my mom to take me to the jail, and there I went for 4 months.

Some people look down on me for having been in jail, but I dont even care. For it was that county jail that got me sober and shed light on who I DIDNT want to be.

I celebrated my 19th bday in jail, and I realized that I had my whole life ahead of me, and I could go one of two ways. I took the high road when I got out.

I had been to 5 rehabs, and a million NA meetings, yet none of it worked for me. Jail worked for me and I wouldnt take any of it back if i had the chance. I am a better person today because of all I have learned.

Now granted, I'm not as far as id like to be with bills and such, I am more mature from this experience and am ready to face the world.

Thank you lord, and to my family for giving me a 13th second chance.

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AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!!!!!!! HELL YEA YOU CAN GET LOCKED UP COVERED UP OR JUST SOBER UP!! YOU MADE A WISE CHOICE MY DEAR AND YOU TOTALLY ROCK!!!!!WAY TO GO GIRL :)

askye
your journal makes me want to cry...i am so happy for you...i know several people who have a similar story...you are right some people may look down on you for having a record, but let it roll off your back, it's not worth the time thinking about that kind of response. your future is bright and it lays b4 you...congrats to you and keep on keepin on!

al11
whatever journey God has us take to get to where we need to be is worth the trip....we are like onions we have so many complex layers..only God can unravel and know. Im very proud of you.......continue on the road of healthy happy worthy living....your a beautiful girl

dilew
I am a recovered coke addict and my husband a recovered heroin/coke addict and we both agree that we are now thankful that we went through what we did. It made us who we are today and we are different because of it. I got clean right before I met my husband over 10 years ago but he is only 3 years clean and I am even thankful for what we went through in his addiction. I have now walked both sides of the road. Don't let the people looking down on you get to you-they are judging you and that is a big thing to answer for to the Man upstairs! Like you said, you were already in jail through your addiction-now you have a fresh start and a foundation to build a life on. Life is harder when you have a "past", but the day may come when your "experience" will come in handy and you might just help someone or save a life. Congrats on your 1 year clean-Keep up the good work-you will be in my thoughts and prayers.

mickey8
Whatever it takes....I believe you will have a remarkable life, career, family...
Brokenness makes one stronger and much more compassionate. You have much to offer others...

TSuzy