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Journal Entry for May 14, 2008 Mood

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

I have been coming on to check on all my freinds,but have not written in awhile,my mind just seems over whelmed lately.The doctor put me on buspirone,'buspar',i have not taken it yet,cant seem to get over my phobia of medication.I keep picturing my liver giving out or dieing.Every time i look at the bottle i get panicky,so i put them away,out of sight,out of mind.I wish i could write everything that is going on right now but there is SO much i dont know were to start.I have to try and slow my mind down first.Its easy to try your best to help others,not so easy to get the help you need for yourself.

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bless your heart , i know how you feel about the medicine. i have a panic attack every time i take a new medication. i will tell you what i do when the doctor gives me new medication, if its a pill or tablet and not a capsule , i split it and only take half a dose . that way i get the assurance its not going to hurt me . sometimes i only take a forth of a tablet. of course if it is a capsule i cant do that . but that helps me . i have a terrible fear that i will be allergic to what i'm taking and that i will have bad reactions to it . i had to go to the er. once for panic after swallowing an herb, so i feel for you . love you sweetie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

dizzylizzie
Just remember im here if you need to talk!! Love ya Nene

NeneGonz
Oh, I wish that you did not have such a fear about meds. I take them and I would not be doing nearly this well otherwise. LOTS of love 2 u,
k.k.

kaykay
Am thinking of you. I understand exactly what you're going through. Is it possible to start with tiny little bits of the tablets and work up to a quarter then a half etc? Would that help? I hope you're doing ok. Be strong. *hugs* xx

ZenEm
Hi Rita. Can you talk to your doctor to get some reassurance? I used to get horrible panic attacks and medication is what has made me virtually panic free. Nicki

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