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Thursday, May 15, 2008 | A Happy story

"____ I love you but I can't be in love with you or even want you anymore. You lied and hurt me to deeply this time to forget and sweep it under the rug. Forgiven, yes. I'm taking the good you left me with, saying thank you, and saying goodbye to what was and the things that could have been. What happened between us in NOT a result of my actions no matter what you say or think. It was you holding yourself back from what you are afraid of. I wish you the best in whatever you pursue and hope it doesn't hurt you too badly. I am happy with myself, something you will never be. I'm becoming happy without you where you have never recovered from any of your pain. Never taking the time for yourself. I look back on my progress and I see what has been. It's been about 2 months since the last. But really, it has taken me 10months to get over you. I never should have taken another chance, and another and another. It was not but part of my healing. So, Goodbye!"

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Many of you may have noticed I enjoy music. Mostly music very few have ever heard of. This is no different, but on the other end of the spectrum. And it is SOOO appropriate to my life now. I have been waiting. Waiting for the day I'd be over you.

Hello tomorrow and good-bye to yesterday
We've been waiting for this moment
And we still don't know what to say
We may never find the answers or know the reason why
Why we both decided we should say good-bye

Nothing but good things are coming my way
If you are going please let me stay
You bring me down when I'm getting high
You turn me on I amplify
One Two Three! times you've broken me (Broken Me)
One Two Three!
One Two Three!

I won't bleed like this forever
I'm down to ride but my wings are severed
Blindside blitz- evacuation
I'm stuck in hell your on vacation
One Two Three! times you've broken me (Broken Me)
One Two Three!
One Two Three!

I've been waiting
Waiting for the day
I've been waiting
Waiting for the day
I'm still waiting for tomorrow
Tired of living in yesterday
I've been waiting
Waiting for the day I'd be over you

Oceans, devotions, these notions run dry
Floating away and I don't know why
Spend all my days in a bottle thinking
You're like an anchor got me sinking
One Two Three! times you've broken me (broken me)
One Two Three!
One Two Three!

Say good-bye now and mean it forever
Got to move on and keep it together
Forget the things that you've said and you've done
That's in the past, here comes the sun
One Two Three! times you've broken me (broken me)
One Two Three!
One Two Three!

I've been waiting
Waiting for the day
I've been waiting
Waiting for the day
I'm still waiting for tomorrow
Tired of living in yesterday
I've been waiting
Waiting for the day I'd be over you

Hello tomorrow and good-bye to yesterday
We've been waiting for this moment
And we still don't know what to say
We may never find the answers or know the reason why
Why we both decided we should say good-bye

I've been waiting
Waiting for the day
I've been waiting
Waiting for the day
I'm still waiting for tomorrow
Tired of living in yesterday
I've been waiting
Waiting for the day I'd be over you

(Hello tomorrow)
One Two Three!
I'd be over you
(Hello tomorrow)
One Two Three!
I'd be over you

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I'm in the same postion, stuck in a relationship that's getting you no where, but I don't have the heart to say goodbye. I really really need to. Going on a year and a half now, and he just won't let me leave him.

Teresa203
It took me soooooo long to get over my ex. I doubted everything about myself when he left me (more like I caught him cheatin', THEN he left me). But, over time I realized I didn't need him as much as I had convinced myself that I did. I told him I still loved him and always would (because I don't take love lightly. When I give my heart to someone, it's not for shits and giggles), but that I was not IN LOVE with him. It was good for me to say because I was the bigger person, ya know? Anyway, I'm glad to see that you are taking steps toward the positive. I haven't known you long, but I do know that you must be a good person to have so much love in your heart for someone. :o)

Here's a warm hug with all the trimmings....lol

((((((((((BEAR HUGZZZZ))))))))))))

SugarEmbargo
Thank you both. What she and I had was unusual anyway...me being here and her being, well...halfway across the country. We were never "together" in a relationship, but I loved her immensely. I still love her, and always will. The thing is, I love the person she has forgotten who she is. Much easier to move on when the person you love is gone. When things were good with her, she was that person. The closer she got to being that person for good, she ran. I can't or won't run from someone I love. She ran from me, not because of me. I can finally see that clearly.

gaeryk
You always pick the best songs with just the right lyrics...

justagirl101
What can I say....music is my life. Those artists have said everything I want to say way better than I ever could.

gaeryk