gaeryk's Journal

For the first time I feel like 1 step backward is two steps forward 

Been a month and a half since voice last hear
Been a month since last written communication
Unsubscribed from status updates
10 days since profile viewed
almost 2 weeks since the dreams stopped
No longer have the "heart drop" whien picture viewed or name heard

Ok, so I am writing this today due to an epiphany of sorts.  More heard an inspirational tale.  Proof that time does heal.  And I look back and think on the things listed above and I realize how much better I am doing than where I was weeks ago.  The Good days finally outnumber the bad.  Went a solid 9 days straight before my last day.  I feel that was a result of just being lonely, not by anything else...not by my demon.

Now I have to find out how to work on myself.  Once I do, I'm positive I will be able to say that I am over her and don't want her back.  Sure a part of me will always want to be with her and experience those things I never got to.  But everyone is right, I am too good and I should have better.  Someone who knows what they want and goes after it.  Not someone who is too afraid of a good future and runs away from one.