is feeling Good
It's been a rough past six months, but I'm ready to start fresh - no looking back, only forward. I really enjoy living in New York and exploring the city.
photography, great lattes in a quaint coffee shops, meeting people, great conversation, ancient history, anything harry potter (don't judge!), buddhism, meditation, walking around the city when its nice out, museums, parks... i could go on and on :)
serene26 changed their mood to Good 11:05pm
June 9, 2008 10:15pm
After being in a horrible mood from the moment I woke up, I went the gym after work. It was definetely what I needed. I actually enjoyed …
June 8, 2008 12:30pm
I stepped away for about a month, but I'm back and I'm ready to do this again. I've been pretty busy for this past month. …
I quickly became lost and I turned into someone I really just did not know. I have to drastically cut back on the drinking - it took a toll on my friendships, my self esteem, and my outlook on life. So far, I'm doing really well and I feel like I've done a complete 180 degree turn around. I think back to drunken nights and those nights I would blackout and I just think 'who was that girl so out of control?' I'm glad I'm not her anymore.
I'm really good at putting on a smile during the day. I convince myself I'm happy. But, it's the nighttime - the time when I'm all alone to think. I realize I'm unhappy. I'm angry. I'm anxious. It's all too much.
I looked to my best friend to catch me every time I fell. I overwhelmed him with my problems and neediness. I depended on him so much it drove him away. I'm working to rebuild that relationship.
I've been overweight for as long as I can remember. Over the past two years I have lost over 50 pounds and am looking to continue losing weight through healthy diet and exercise.
I have managed to get myself into some serious credit card debt. I have student loans that are in the six figures, and I need to educate myself on how to take care of all of this responsibly.
