Today I feel yucky! I'm sorry...I …
Today I feel yucky! I'm sorry...I hate negitive energy and I hate negitive talk so I try not to share my truly …
So this morning my mother called the (ex) to discuss the whole issue of throwing it in my face consistantly that he owns the house I live in and can be there with his kids all he wants. He messed up big time with the bias mediator my mother has been for the both of us. Mom gave him an earful on his control issues.
She asks him if my checks are ready and she would like to come over and pick them up. A couple weeks ago I went to his house ( control- only way he will give them to me) and continued about a 50 min. abusing conversation on how I was a piece of shit as a mother. ( Awesome mom- no addictions, tons of parenting courses, teach parenting courses now) and proceeded to try and get all the information he could about my personal life with threats and manipulative techniques. Example; bet you didn't get a job yet, nobody would hire a liar and theif like you.
So , he wouldn't give my mom the checks, just told her I could come pick them up or MAYBE he might mail them.
Nothing to drink for my kids, they are drinking water.
Had to borrow milk from my mother to make their favorite hamburger helper.
So he gets to win, I drive over, HA HA, With my mother next to me. (He won't abuse me with her in the car) Doesn't show that kind of controling manipulative behavior in front of her or anyone else for that matter. Scary to be in his presence when no one is around.
Try not to ever be alone in the same space when no one is around.
Controling with MONEY again! Only person that gets hurt is THE CHILDREN!
I get to go to Child Support Enforcement Office tomorrow and Complete my goal of a major list of goals to have a healthy functional life.
Today I feel yucky! I'm sorry...I hate negitive energy and I hate negitive talk so I try not to share my truly …
went to Md yesturday for antidepresant (wellbutrin) I have been having trouble controling my temper. I explode for no …
Well....I'll keep trying. My son just called and 'seemed' in a good 'space', but it …
Thank you for requesting to be my friend. It means a lot to me that you reach out and tell me that my group really does make a difference. I was reading through your journal and can see how your ex has some definite abuser traits. He is controlling through finances, emotionally, and physically. He harms the children and he verbally berates you and belittes you trying to make you feel absolutely worthless....well honey I have new for you. Guess what?! You ARE NOT crazy. You ARE a good mother, and YOU should be commended for moving forward, slowly but surely you will heal. You won't be the same person you were but you will be STRONGER. As one article I read said, "We don't realize how strong we realy, and don't realize what inner strength it takes to endure so much abuse".
My friend, YOU are worth it. Try to stop communicating with him directly. Use your mother and other people to contact him so you can truly start to heal. Pat yourself on the back for getting out!! MY GOSH! YOU ARE FREE!!!!
RubyMcC