Journal Entry for August 20, 2008
August 20, 2008 1:15pm
going to hang out with my brother and nephew today, hopefully my spirits rise.
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About Me
i grew up in a small west michigan town. i loved it. now i live in a bigger city and its ok, but i prefer the outdoors and privacy more. i'm with a good man for 2 1/2 years now. i work almost full time hours at a decent job. i guess i'm here to connect with people of the same intrest, background, obstacles, or whatever.
Interests
i enjoy to garden, sew, take photographs, play video games, computers, camping, boating, fishing, tennis, hiking, going to the park, all kinds of music, also, being with family and friends. there are many things i enjoy to do, too many to name!
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Journal Entry for August 18, 2008
August 18, 2008 4:04pm
here i am. sitting at jason's. we've been done for four days now and i'm still here. i'm dying inside. i want him back …
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Journal Entry for August 15, 2008
August 15, 2008 10:45pm
well, its been 26 hours officially single. i'm still half way living with him. last night was horrrrribbbleee. one of the worst. i almost did the …
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Journal Entry for August 10, 2008
August 10, 2008 7:35pm
ups and downs. downs and ups. all freaking day long. today i finally went back to work after 3 days. its progress right? gotta start somewhere! …
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Welcome to the Women Only group. Come in and make yourself at at home and learn, recieve/give support, and have fun.
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yes, everything is fine right now :). the only thing is i'm staring to slowly get depressed again. :( won't be until several months when I get to the point of cutting though. so hopefully it goes away before then. thanks for thinking of me :)
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i am sorry you are sad
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hope your boyfriend doesnt get too far apart from you anymore.
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Sometimes I think I make up problems in my own head about things; I've been told I overanalyze situations, but I don't know... everything just seems to hurt so much. I can't right now, but I'm going to write you a message
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Close Self-Injury
I've been cutting for almost 10 years now. I used to cut quite frequently, but now I do it a lot less. When I'm doing it, it relieves something. But the next day I think back and say "what the hell was I thinking?" I get embarassed by my marks, but I just can't seem to quit. My depression is consuming my life.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- I enjoyed talking with the doctor about stuff, but the whole commitment thing got the best of me.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Zoloft Somewhat Helpful
- I used to be totally against mood enhancers but when I started my pills I found that it really helped. Well it worked for a few months but hasnt done anything lately for me. Im not sure what the normal doseage is maybe thats my problem not enough.
Close Depression
I've been battleing depression for about 11 years or so. And its consuming my life.
Treatments
- Celexa Somewhat Helpful
- This is the first medication i was put on, it kinda worked.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- I try to do this everyday, sometimes its really challenging
- Prozac Somewhat Helpful
- Reason why I quit Prozac: Drowsiness
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Helped, but I have a hard time committing myself.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Probably the best thing thats helped me yet. They saved my life.
- Writing Working / Worked
- I used to write a lot, but it seems to not have the same effect anymore. But I'm trying to get back into it.
- Zoloft Somewhat Helpful
- I'm currently taking.
Open Tooth Grinding
i've been doing it all my life.
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- Mouthguard Working / Worked
- it worked until i eventually chewed it up.
Open Healthy Relationships
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Open Anxiety
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- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Zoloft Working / Worked
Open Marijuana Addiction & Recovery
i've been smoking just about everyday since i graduated high school in 2003. i don't think that its a good thing, but it does ease the pain when i'm depressed.
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
My whole life I've been overweight. Then I turned 18 and ate a lot less. I lost 95 lbs in about 6 mos. I kept it off for 3 yrs and gained it all back. :(
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- Curves Somewhat Helpful
- it was like in the year 2001, i wasn't really into it.
- Dancing Working / Worked
- its exercise and its fun
- Eating Healthier Foods Working / Worked
- makes me feel good!
- Eat Less Working / Worked
- definately. this is my problem.
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- also makes me feel good! but should do it more often.
Open Breakups & Divorce
i want to leave the relationship i'm in. i'm really scared to be on my own again...
Treatments
- Forgiveness Not Working
- it worked for a little while.
- Leave Working / Worked
- usually always a positive move.
- Music Working / Worked
- music makes my mood most of the time.
- Pets Working / Worked
- pets love you unconditionally
- Reading Working / Worked
- he never wanted to directly help our relationship, but i tried reading up on it.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- the true ones who love me will always be there.
- Talking Working / Worked
- you can only vent so much, then you have to take action.
- Time Working / Worked
- from previous relationships, time is of the essence. time always helps
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