katsupsidedown's Journal

I love to hear the rain on the roof and the scent of the fresh air. But the grey clouds are there only to remind me of how lonely I feel. I know to some it might sound silly to say that I am lonely eventhough I have a big family. But my loneliness comes from many areas. I miss my 2 sons that do not live at home anymore and I wish that I could do more for them. I miss smiling. I miss hugging someone that loves me as a woman. I miss being able to go to the store without feeling so much stress. I miss being able to work and the friends that were there and are not here now. I miss companionship and those little things that come from it. I miss being able to walk without pain.  I miss just being me or the me I used to be. I miss love. Today is just Blah.