katsupsidedown's Journal

Many things are crumbling around me. The devil sure knows how to hit me hard...My oldest boy continues to go downhill in health...And the state says he can not get any health insurance...So we continue to battle dissability...My ex-husband and I just got back together and we found out that he has bone cancer...I am still tring to find time to go to my own doctors appointments, with not much luck...Gas prices are hitting everyone so hard...

I still find time to laugh with my sons. I need my friends support...Money is such an issue right now...

It is hard to be in 4 places at the same time.

Hugs to all, and God Bless...

As far as my mood...I am in a good state of mind today...

But everyone in the house, including me...are sick...For about a week now my 3 sons and myself are feeling terrible. But in these cases I can put aside how I feel mentally and set my mind on "mother-mode"...I hate it when my kids are sick...I would rather be sick and take all of there pain away from them...With medicine from the doctor I know in a week or so they will be fine... But for today I can not swallow very well at all...Kids went to the doctors,...when they are well, then I will go...

On a good point today...it is so beautifull outside,...rain, but freshly cut grass flowers starting to grow, and birds singing waiting for the worms to come up from their hiding places...

How is a big word. For me, today it means so much. How can I make myself get motivated to do the simpliest things? Taking a shower, doing the laundry, anything that is so simply, to me is so hard. I know what needs to be done yet my head is tired all of the time and sleep is all my body wants to do.

I am tring to find ways to motivate myself.

Some days I can work through the sleepy eyes that just want to close, other days, tv is all I can manage.

My children and their laughter is all that brings true happiness to my soul.

I am so lucky for the love of my boys.

And so blessed for the love of so many.