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I don't remember... I know I stopped for a reason though.. Every medication I've taken has made me numb, instead of controlling my emotions, it eliminates them all together

i dont remember... should have kept a log. all the meds seem to blend together and seem the same to me. So I guess i could use the same description as celexa's.

I felt loopy... like I really was on drugs. Loss of concentration. Mood swings were more common than if I wasn't on any medication. I was still numb to important issues that I should stress over, while my mood swings were about petty silly things..by far the worst of my experiences.

The most helpful of all of my medications. However I couldn't drink.. (college student--social necessity) I also still went into my dark hole often, and it seemed to wear off? and of course the same numb feeling as celexa. I don't remember though

I try... then I start making excuses that lead me back to seclusion, food and my bed.

It worked when I was there... helpful to talk to someone... no more health insurance.

The first on my journey of pills... I don't know if it really did anything at all. I think it was more me thinking that it was working than anything else. I was numb tho--i remember that. not to mention the fun side effects of constipation, dry mouth, low sex drive.....

it helps a lot. that's why i'm here. I used to write much more--spill my heart out. My trust between hand and paper was broken when my ex-boyfriend got my journal and read everything---hasnt been the same since (It's been 3 years) And.. it's hard to write when I don't even want to get out of bed.

I try to work out 3-4 times a week.... some weeks are better than others. Once I'm done with my workout I feel better...but not good. When I'm running all I do is think--i've stopped to cry more than once. or it can go the other way and I can be so hyped up on endorphines that I couldn't imagine crying..... depression is frustrating and confusing like that for me.