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Thursday, May 15, 2008 | A General Update story

I find writing these journal entries such a help, doesn't matter if anyone else ever reads it; just helps to get it off your chest. Been missing it, stayed away for a while partly 'cause of withdrawl from klonopin and partly cause I had a binge on pills and drink a couple of weeks back and although I don't remember much, I know I came on this site and was a little scared to come back as I was a bit out of control. Got arrested for criminal damage, breach of the peace and assaulting a police officer that night, so not one of my best, fortunately came to an agreement with the prosecution service that I'd get some proper counselling again, they've fined me £250 and I have to check in with a probation officer once a fortnight, could have been a lot worse.

Don't know if I can do it, stayed sober for a while and went cold turkey on the tranqs, but drinking again don't know how much longer I can keep chasing my tail, got that horrible feeling in my gut again that it's time to give up, I only seem to cause grief to my family and those around me.

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Guz, klonopin withdrawal is dangerous, so hope you are under supervision. I nearly had to get an ambulance once when I ran out. I was getting dehydrated from vomiting. Managed to keep some Gatorade down, and got a refill delivered. So, keep it gradual. I take it only to sleep.

Booze is a depressant. I had to go to AA and quit when I was in my 20s. I partied so hard it was already time to hang up my spurs! I don't really miss it.

You NEED to get on some meds for bipolar. WHEN are you going to do it?

NoOneLeft
Sorry, guz, didn't mean to sound controlling. I do worry about you and hate to see you suffer unnecessarily. It is hard to watch someone make the same mistakes I did.

NoOneLeft