flouncy's Journal

well now we have been back 2 weeks and everything is calm we have our weekends back and we dont know what to do with them we have been so used to the wedding taking up every bit of our time and now we dont have to do a thing its all over nothing left to pay all done and dusted. i havent really spoken to my best mate at all since before the wedding and i dont partically want to. ater all cancellling on me the day before the weding was a big let down. i had to get three people ready on my wedding day myself and my two kids it was manic. very manic with 5 mins to go i was not even ready, the registrar came up to brief me on what was going to happen and i had 2 people still doing the back of my dress up. if my aunt and and 2 other people hadnt have been there then my two kids wouldnt have even been ready. my little boy would have gone down in just his nappy and my little girl in her pants...lol funny thinking of it now but blimey i was seething with my best mate. she had made everything so difficult for the whole day by cancelling on me last minute. all of our family said they would help out and with a 2 and a half hour photography shoot straight after service the kids ran riot. with me feeling i wanted to give in and go home and mr raging getting very what can we say ..... raging. shouting at the kids so they didnt run off in the car park and mud and with his little brother running one way ater our little girl our little boy was running the other way. it was a disaster really we had about 5 members of our family running after them for 2 hours. then ahhhh at lst our little boy fell fast asleep for an hour in his pram. so people only had to run after 1 kid. at the meal my daughter sat with her nan and i was soo stressed out she let her do anything and everything. there was chocolate before her meal then orange juice and ice cream together i really did think she was going to throw up. but the meal went fine and without a hitch, it was truly a beautiful day i will never forget. well after the meal my son woke up and everyone went for a 2 hour break before the reception party. so we gave in and stayed at the bar with two kids running about again and everyone chasing after them. now its not everyday i admit to doing this so be warned!! i took my wedding shoes off and put my trainers on. yes trainers! so the reception started and so did my running. well everyone had given up on the kids so all night i was running after the kids, from 7pm till 11.30n at night i ran after my two kids i was so tired my hurt my legs hurt and i didnt even get drunk. i definately didnt enjoy the reception aprt from cutting the cake and having our first dance together. so then what go back to the room and do whjat every other married couple should do?? nooooooo. we had our two kids in our room hyper as hell untill 12.30 when they finally sparked out. we were so pissed off with how the day had turned out. so we sat there and opened all our cards then went to sleep, yeah a couple of words to my bestest mate ever..... thanks a fukin lot! sorry lost my temper there. 

so looking back we did have a fantastic day really its just a shame that we had our kids on our wedding night. as for the honey moon it bloody rained the whole time, ran out of things to do and came back a day early. so we are so gutted about that. really it was a holiday for the kids to enjoy and we will have our honeymoon another time when we can be just mr and mrs.

as for acromegaly i was so so scared of it biting me in the arse on my wedding day, i woke up with a bit of a headache but it soon went which made me feel great. and my arms and legs were fine as was my back. later on though my legs and back were hurting a little so i had to sit down for a bit. but aprt from that it was fine. but when we did get back to our room that night my back and legs hurt so much. had to wait untill i got back from honeymoon to know what was going on with my medication. the doctor has said that they are waiting for the yes to fund the drug as it costs £300.00 per jab. its so expensive. i just have to wait untill they say its fine then they can get it.sandosamtin autogel is what i am getting...i think thats what you call it anyway, i know jokey and swampy are on it also. once a month injection.

but in all honesty it was a fantastic day the kids apart from running a marathon were so well behaved all day and night. and our honeymoon, we saw some beautiful sights and for our first holiday together it was ok i shouldnt complain really it was nice to get away from eberything. and to see raging and our children so nicely dressed and looking wonderful it was a very magical day and i really cant explain the feeling i get thining of them on that day. it makes me smile inside out. im so lucky to have a husband and children that love me so much and would do anything for me. raging really has been looking after me. when we were on holiday he did apsalutely everything. after the wedding acro hit me big time i was in so much pain with headaches and my arms and wrists hurting.

hospital appt about carpal tunnel...... havent got it!!! so now what??? why are my arms and hands hurting so so much i dont understand if its not carpal tunnel what is it. i just feel like there is just one thing after the other with this. nevermind as long as they know what they are doing at the hospital.