My husband died on 3rd april. He …
My husband died on 3rd april. He had been battling mental illness for 3 years made worse by use of cannabis and …
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i signed up because im at the point where i now dont feel well and i feel weird. ok i lost my job and it kinda started from there, but 2 months ago i started to feel worse. ive been on citophram (sorry if its spelt wrong) since october 2006 and they helped a lot. but then stupid me took a joint of someone and it began a long time smoking cannabis. now ive decided to stop as i feel this is not helping like it used to and did it to feel normal. but now ive quit i feel so low, as i now get bored (one of the reasions for smoking was to stop that) but anyways i have a lot of nasty people that are always telling me im ugly stupid pathetic no job etc and this has made me feel worse. im now sitting here crying my eyes out and i really do feel like there is no hope and ive got no purpose in life any more. and i sleep a lot. but im now worried as i dont know if i can cope no more. has anyone ever been in this situation and how did u beat it. im fed up with feeling beat up and want to be normal again.
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