mizziggie's Journal

Argh!  Some pain, some blues.  Wish I could get up the courage to go back to work today.   Thought I'd be able to......then I started thinking of the work I have to catch up on.  Wish this darn chest pain would stop.  I'm so tired of those ambulance rides to the ER, only to have them say it's not my heart.......I KNOW THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  But they keep saying to "call 911 if you have any more chest pain" or they yell at me if I drive in.  The chest pain is almost constant; it's just that sometimes it gets really bad....up to a 7 or 8 (out of 10).  The only thing that makes it go away is morphine or dalatun (I know I"m not spelling that right) from the ER.  Had another heart cath three weeks ago and it was clean.  Scheduled for an espohageal endoscopy on the 9th.  Hope that shows something that can be treated.  Otherwise, I'm going to go even crazier!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  And my poor lh is just beside himself with worry.  He's even thinking of retiring two years early to keep a loving eye on me.  I hate what this is doing to him!!!!!!!!!!!!