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Monday, April 14, 2008

Home again. So the visit was good for us. Mom and I are reconnecting, too bad it's for unfortunate reasons (with her fears about developing A-Fib and my miscarriage grief stuff going on). It was good to go with her to her ENT appt. today. Then I drove home and went to my first acupuncture appt. It was pretty intense actually. I'm actually pretty wiped out, and sore now. I am getting treatment for a shoulder problem, as well as anxiety/dep./grief. While I was laying there, she suggested visualizing what I want my life to be like (w/o these problems). It hit me that I want to feel alive, and somehow I feel guilty for that since my baby is not living.

Grief Scale (1=least, 10=worst). Today=4

Plans for the Week:

Mon. Had today off. Had first acupuncture appt.

Tues. OA, American Idol

Wed. follow up acupuncture appt., Grief Group, American Idol

Thurs. codependency group @ lunch, go to mom's at night

Fri. DSM training in Portland, be back by 5pm

Weekend - on call for ER

Mon. off - noon acupuncture, 3pm therapy

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I made my acupuncture appointment for a week from Friday. He couldn't get me in any sooner at a time that worked for both of us. Did you see the meditation book entry today. It said "I will try today, to put down a clump of worry, leave it, and walk away." Here's hoping we both get a peaceful soothing sleep tonight.

nagasaki
Acupuncture is great. You should read my journal for today on my treatment last eve. Sounds like your week is busy. I do hope you rest peacefully tonight and feel relaxed.

April1963