someone like that cant survive
July 20, 2008 9:46pm
broke up w/ brian - i will never have a long term relationship w/ anyone....i am not worth having anyway....all i do is hurt people...i have seen so …
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foreverscarred
is feeling Horrible
sometimes i just wanna hide...
Recently: 5 hugs received, 2 hugs given more …
About Me
I'm 19 and in college for IT in computers -- have been suffering from depression on and off for almost 9 years and suffering from suicidal thoughts for a little more than 2 months, mostly cuz of my moms death.
Interests
horses, reading murder mysteries, baking/cooking, singing, and computers
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Recent Activity
Wednesday
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foreverscarred gave hja a Hug 10:33pm
thank you - todays been hard but looking a bit brighter now. Hope u are doing well.…
Sunday
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foreverscarred wrote a discussion post in the Depression support group: someone like that cant survive 9:59pm
broke up w/ Brian - i will never have a long term relationship w/ anyone....i am not worth having anyway....all…
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foreverscarred wrote a journal entry updating their Be a better partner goal 9:46pm
broke up w/ brian - i will never have a long term relationship w/ anyone....i am not worth having anyway....all…
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foreverscarred changed their mood to Horrible 1:41pm
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foreverscarred updated their status 1:41pm
sometimes i just wanna hide...…
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3 hours til death
June 8, 2008 11:50pm
gonna do it tonite - its too late to fix anything - too late to apolagize. 3 hours til i exacute my plan small part of me is scared that i wont stop …
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Too lost to be saved?
June 4, 2008 11:02pm
I am devestated - i got suspended from college - idk how it happened but i gonna try to find out - i have to appeal then maybe be allowed to come …
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I'll never walk alone again
May 18, 2008 11:40pm
When you walk through a storm hold your head up high And don't be afraid of the dark. At the end of a storm is a golden sky
And the sweet …
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Prayer
Wanted you to know I'm here for support. Sending prayers your way. Helen
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It's not what you gather, but what you scatter that tells what kind of life you have lived.great big ole grizzly bear hugggzzzzzzz squishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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Hey lass. Your ok . In my eyes. I am here to talk , listen ,whatever. I am 31 and I have trouble coping . I go to a pscyhothereapist which help me to figure out things in my head. maybe something you want to think of. a hug and a prayer . and bad break ups happen. I had one about nine months ago ,and I am starting to think about it less.
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you can survive my friend , your are in my thoughts n prayers,great big ole grizzly bear huggggzzzzzzzzz squishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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THAT IS REALLY BEAUTIFUL. THANK YOU.
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Treatments
- Lexapro Not Working
- Meditation Too Soon to Tell
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- g-parents don't understand me rite now
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- write in blog on myspace -- member of 3 forums - helps but usually not for long
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Parentmy mom died june 23, 2007 from ovarian cancer - 8 1/2 years of hell -- i watched her die, that my heart and my spirit. Most nites i hear her call out to me to "make them stop" i cant stop crying.....
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- i cry for hours - i feel better for a day then cry again - never completely helps
- Getting Angry Somewhat Helpful
- i punch pillows, an occasional wall but the anger is never gone for long
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Pets Working / Worked
- i have 2 cats which give me "fuzz therapy" and i work w/ horses
- Remembering Not Working
- Remembering hurts more than it helps
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- when i vent i cry and i am trying to get way from that if i can
- Time Not Working
- its been almost a year since my moms death and still i cant get past the crying, pain, sadness, anger etc
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Recently …
- 2 hugs given
- 5 hugs received
- 1 discussion post
