lovewriter1991's Journal

My life right now is so weird I can't even begin to explain it, but I guess I could try. Well if any of you know I'm in a mess with this older guy who I sorta like but I don't know what to do about. But I made up my mind. I'm not going to do anything about it. I don't want to get into trouble. Him being over 2o and me 17. And i guess I could say that my past is coming up to me. Lately everything I have been doing as reminded me of one of my ex-boyfriends. My first love. We did a lot together and so almost everything in this world reminds me of him. I want to make something more of it but there is only one problem. He is down in alabama and I'm up in montana. I'm still in love with. I always have. He wasn't my first boyfriend but he was the first guy I did lots of things with. I have thought about going to collage down at Alabama state, but by the time I gradulate from high school he'll most likely be off doing something with his life. Its a little weird talking about him cuz since I moved up to montana almost two years ago I told myself that I needed to erase him from my mind and start over. Well every time I went out with a guy in montana just a little event would remind me of him. Its seems weird cuz I'm the one who called it off and we haven't really talked since the breakup and we always had to fight when we were around each other. And it was a weird relationship. We met at band camp hahaha laugh laugh....and it just seemed like it would last. WRONG!!!! I got scared that I liked him too much for my own good and called it off. Grrrr........